#whyham.

Dear Naeun,

When a good friend of mine asked me about what I like about you, I end up writing a novel about how, "She's just really adorable, and sensitive, but it's good... and sometimes when I fall asleep, she just spams my phone with messages and sends me pictures and it's just--really cute, you know? Since I never really feel like this before. She makes me looking forward to waking up everyday, and she just does a lot of things that’s making my heart do this thing and makes me smile for a long time...She put her pictures on my wallet, too, so my wallet is now filled with her pictures and also... she's always very supportive of whatever I'm doing- when I'm at work, she don't nag or whine but she tells me to work hard and focus, although I really miss her when she's not talking to me, and even if I'm playing League she's actually understanding about it... even though I have to confess that I haven't played League in few days because of her.” and I realize about how I could actually write much more because you’re just that precious. 

I feel like there’s so much I want to tell you but then I realize how I just always tell you everything that’s on my mind, but first of foremost, I am very happy that... despite what happened in the past for both of us and the things that we went through respectively, I am now confident to say that I’ve found a new happiness with you and I’m very much glad and happy that you found that with me too. I always see you looking so upset before and yeah you might have heard this before but now that you’re less upset and sad and more happy and smiley, I feel so much better inside and I can feel my days are getting brighter each days thanks to your presence (I hope my presence does the same too to you, although I’m pretty confident to say that it does not because I’m being overconfident or anything but because I know you said that a lot to me and I feel really happy every time I hear it). 

You mention about how it is funny that after five years of knowing each other it is only now that.... we see each other like this, or standing side by side and holding each other’s hand because wow, it took us a good five years to become who we are today but I’m happy for now because as you said, there’s a time for everything and I believe that this is our time now and I would very much like to have this... to be with you and everything for a very long time because you’re such a keeper, too precious for the world and more importantly someone that I really like

I want to apologize for not doing things...  sooner, or that I seem to make you wait in here because we could be more than this now but it’s not good if we’re rushing things so here we are now, trying our best (emphasize on the trying part) to take things slowly but surely.  You told me about how you can see both of us in the long-run, that you want us to last for a long time and from the bottom of my heart I do, too. You’re the best thing that has ever happened to me since awhile and I’m not just sweet-talking this part because you literally are the greatest thing that happens in my life. They say there’s always rainbow after the rain, right? And I believe that you’re that rainbow (as much as this analogy doesn’t seems to make sense now the more I see it but I hope you know what I’m trying to say) for me. 

And for every nightmares that you might get, for every bad memories that you’ve experienced I’ll like to make you tenfold happier than you ever did because I will try my best to make you happy foremost and treat you the way you’ve never felt before. I want to be that guy whom you will remember and who you will miss and I’m sorry in advance that there are a lot of things that I’m lacking with but when it comes to you, do know that I’m trying my best because you’re my most favorite person. I like you. A lot. And I’d like that this ‘like’ feeling will transforms into something bigger because I really like how I’ve learned something new about you every single days, as I like the way you ramble or whine about certain things or bury your face in my chest when you’re tired--I like everything and I hope it’ll be that way for a long time because I really feel like as if I finally ‘found’ you. 

There’s still so many things stored for us in the future, by the way, but I hope we can continue communicate well and work on this together. Do know that you’re not alone, but that we’re in this together--us. 

Thank you, Son Naeun, Sonna, the cute hamster--for making me happy again. 

I promise you to make you happy too in return for making me finding my happiness. Pinky promises.

@naeunne