Do i wanna be in a âRelationshipâ?
In our Arabian countries , The girl have a specific life path, she go to school , graduate university, meet a guy  through her university years or at work, get married, have children, quit work as her first priority must be her home and kids and at last, Die! sometimes this death is not physically but for sure mental death!, as i graduated university in 2014 everyone around me is trying to convince me to get married. I get to face a lot of people who asks me one question over and over again... WHY ARE YOU STILL SINGLE?. i started getting pissed off from this question, and the curiosity which revolves around  more questions such as, why do you push away the grooms whenever they propose? or something like, you are beautiful what are you waiting for?these types of questions makes me feel as if iâm in a race that never ends!, actually it makes me feel insecure. and i end up overthinking about who is  right? me or the others? thatâs why i decided to come open and give you a piece of how i think about it! It all started when i watched a trailer of a new movie named âMe before youâ,And asked myself will i ever feel different in a good way if i had a life partner? then i figured out that to answer this question i have to be able first to know what am i looking for in a lover?! but again i realized i couldnât answer both questions until i know what type of person am i, what i like and what i donât , what i wanna be few years from now?... and as i said in my first post âIce breakerâ I donât really know who i am. so until i know if youâll ask me do i wanna be in relationship? i âll say: No , thank you. yes, sometimes i miss the feeling of being someoneâs first priority, sometimes i need that hug we see in all the movies, the hug which make us feel as if all the worries and doubts can easily fade away. i need that one person who will stay no matter how hard i might be, the one who will never let go of my hands when i need someone to make me strong. I am a girl who cherish education and reading, i never want to stop ending up to be a house wife raising her kids, cooking and cleaning the house, i am a dreamer i wanna achieve targets and run after goals, i want to travel the world, smell the blossoms of freedom, take a lot of pictures and make more than a million good memory, find a cure for cancer and make someone smile, i donât want to be the girl living on other peopleâs way.. I want to live it my own way!. simply... I WANT TO LEAVE MY FOOT PRINTS IN THIS WORLD BEFORE I DIE!. and who can walk this path with me ? until now, no one. So again if youâll ask me: do i wanna be in a relationship? i âll say: No , thank you. what i wrote now might not be convenient for the people around me,iâm sorry but if you want an answer to the questions you ask... you have to accept that i will answer it my way! . Because,Being single is my choice for now. so please stop asking these annoying questions and remember that if you ever asked me again if i wanna be in a relationship? iâd answer NO, THANK YOU . ~HFawaz ~moments_of_impact
