i was tagged by @rosesblueviolets (love you, eva!) and am unfortuantely just now getting to it. but, thank you, friend, and would love to get to know you better, too! also, food mention below!

last song: rainbow by dodie

last movie: oh! i rewatched gone girl and that nicholas sparks’ movie the longest ride while on shift, lol.

currently watching: west wing (rewatch) and euphoria! (also the bachelorette but that doesn't count, i think.)

currently reading: the lovely works of all of my friends on here, and killers of the flower moon: the osage murders and the birth of the fbi by david grann.

currently craving: pizza. pizza, pizza, pizza. 

06. — trusted

“Did I hurt you?” he practically snarls it and hates himself the moment he does. 

But there is such panic—such raw, ugly panic in his chest. It tears through everything else that he is; all the good and the bad and the broken because what if he hurt you. What if he hurt the one good thing he’s managed to find? 

Every day he lives with it—with the knowledge that he doesn’t deserve you, that you could do so much better than him. After all the lives he’s taken, innocent and otherwise, what could you possibly want with a murderer?  

Cold sweat coats his skin, loose strands of hair sticking to his forehead and he feels almost sickly because if he hurt you—

Your fingers are soothing against his, careful and gentle, as if not to scare him and if that isn’t a hilarious concept. As if he couldn’t break you with half a thought—

And that’s part of his nightmares. A neverending nightmare in which Hydra makes him hurt you over and over again. 

“I’m fine, James,” you soothe, and lean closer, watching his expression and letting him see your own composed features. “You didn’t hurt me. You’re fine. Hey, look at me. I’m okay.”

But he can’t. Shame sits heavy and sour in his chest, its dark sting spreading through his limbs like poison. He tackled you, pinned you to the wall like some animal, his fingers ready to crush your windpipe, ready to kill—

WHAT no way that so cool omg, thank you for being here ♥♥

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☆ – i’m right there with you in the jake gyllenhaal lover boat tbh. i trust your taste 100%. also… holy shit?? your masterlist?? i haven’t read a ton of marvel fics but yours all sound so good wow i know what i’m binging before bed today! i also very much enjoy your reblogs and posts (especially that one textpost about mysterio being awful but so hot at the same time. Mood) + i’m always a stickler (stickler? sucker? sickler?) for the classic black-and-white theme and i like what you’ve done with it!