#whisperofgrace

asdfghjkl I LOVE IT AND I LOVE YOU

From The Golden Tile

.. I know I should have to tell you the whole truth when you asked me if I came from somewhere else. But it was already scary for me to tell you I was from Earth, can you imagine me telling you I come from the future where magic is dead and that the puzzle I am making with Eliot is part of the solution to bring it back? You would’ve run away. And it was the last thing I wanted. You were right to be mad when you discovered it, I don’t know how many more time I can tell you that I am sorry. But the fact is, that night when you stormed off The Cottage and went for a walk, I was sure I’d lost you. And the ache I felt without you was grander than anything I’m giving up on earth. Because back there they will live without me, but I can’t live without you.

When I woke up to your body slipping inside the bed and asking for my arms, it took me everything not to cry. Well, no cause I totally cried. But what I mean is… I would have understood if you’d never wanted to see me again. Heartbroken, but understanding. Even Eliot didn’t know what you will do, which is surprising because usually, he’s good at those kinds of things. But seeing that you came back to me, to us, made me realize that all those time you say you’d follow me where my adventure takes me and that you were ready for anything happening….you meant it. It was not just an empty promise made by someone in love. It was true.

When you left the morning after, Eliot told me that The Cottage without you didn’t seem right anymore. Part of it was missing. I am blessed that he always welcome you into our life. But that morning I understood you aren’t just marrying me. You are joining Eliot and I. And tomorrow; we will become a family.

And for once in my life, I am not scared of a life-changing event, but I am impatient. Impatient of waking up to you every morning, to hear you sing when you work, to call Eliot our partner in life and eager to call you my wife.

I love you

– Q

Mostly how much of a mess they are?

The short answer to that is pretty much the way they looked at each other in an elevator that one time? I got Santa Ana winded.

The long answer is initially I was just all about their snarky dynamic; it was so fun to have someone that was a match for Rebecca intellectually coupled with the tension that came from him being everything she came to West Covina to get away from, both literally and figuratively—Nathaniel doesn’t just represent the life itself that she was turning away from but the parts of herself that she was rejecting in the process, which is endlessly fascinating to me (sometimes it legit fucks me up thinking about how the capricious Rebecca we know and love is a relatively new iteration). Then as we went on it also became a lot about how Nathaniel was just a dumb smitten nerd that was completely and utterly undone by her?

Then there’s the whole two sides of the same coin thing they’ve got going on. There’s a lot of common ground there with their pasts and resulting present-day anxieties that gives the potential for them to provide each other with understanding and support—they can challenge each other emotionally as well as intellectually, if these kids would just have a couple of conversations!

I’m also just so happy on Rebecca’s behalf that she has finally had someone that never made her jump through hoops for their affection and that knows a lot of the dark parts of her and hasn’t shied away. Even if they don’t end up working out, just the offer of that is so important.

ASDFGHJKL

i consider that fic one of my greatest achievements so it’s always extra gratifying when someone else shows it love. thank you, thank you 💖

1. Having dinner with friends

2. Long walks

3. A smooth cup of coffee

4. Knowing how I’m going to get to the next scene when writing

 What spurs you on during the writing process?

There is to distinct things that make me write faster that I notice in the last year. Either I get a comment of the fic i am writing, it makes me want to give to the readers more, or when I get a good line or conversation stuck into my brain and I Need to write it down. Like the conversation between Arielle and Fen came to me one night and I wrote it down in one stride. 

What’s your favourite trope to write?

I watched all of it in one go a few months back