#whenwilltheystop

Like Biggie said, "This type of shit happens everyday." #TheRealIssue #PoliceBrutality #WhenWillTheyStop #NotUntilWeStopThem #OurLivesMatter #StandupForYourRights #DontGiveUpTheFight #Repost @24hourhiphop ・・・ They don't want us to be mad about this type of treatment !!! They want us to beleive this is how we're supposed to be treated by police !!! They want us to bow down!!! We won't bow down #24hourhiphop

When I was a child, I would place my head onto my flat, cold pillow before going to sleep. From here I would listen not to anything out of my room or the pillow, no nothing like that. I would listen to footsteps,thump, thump, thump, and as I would listen they would go faster and faster and faster, until I would panic and jolt up and make sure I was once again...alone. It took me a few years of this happening every once in a while before I realized that those footsteps I heard were not some nameless, shapeless figure chasing me but in fact were my own heartbeats. As I would grow increasingly anxious my heart would beat faster, as they do, which would serve only to further provoke anxiety and so on...But even after this realization I was still scared. It took me even more years after then for me to realize why I was still scared of the footsteps. Now I know that reason, it is because I am not scared of the footsteps or the panicking and definitely not the  jolting up in the middle of the night. No, I am afraid of when the footsteps will stop, but I do not take my head of the pillow, I do not panic, and I cease to exist.

Taekai happened. That's it. I'm dead. Bye. I don't wanna live anymore. I'm done.