#werd.

Had a deep conversation with an old friend of mine from high school this morning. She told me how her parents stopped paying their mortgage and now they're moving back to Queens in a two bedroom apartment. She's staying behind for her dinky little job and her boyfriend. I can't say that I blame her all that much, I'd want to stay with my dinky little job and my fiance too. I remember growing up with her and another friend of mine, they had the best of everything and I got knock-off Barbies and hand-me-downs. I'm in no way saying she deserves this stress, but I've come to appreciate the little my Mom was able to give me. My fiance came from a similar background as this old friend, he was given the best of everything, but both of their parents busted their asses to get it. He's now seeing how hard it is to live every month, we put together our paychecks to afford our expenses; we do have a bit of cutting back to do, because we buy an excessive amount of stuff, but last night he even admitted that part of him wishes he grew up in my position.. I am grateful for the little bit that I have; Mom and I share a small one bedroom apartment, but its a roof, we buy all discounted foods, but we're fed. We have flip phone Tracfones, but we can still communicate with everyone, even if it doesn't have all the bells and wistles of a smart phone. I have my bi-weekly paid position at school, but it puts money in my pocket and it helps me get back and forth to my classes. I don't pay for my schooling right now, in fact I've spent $33,000 in grants that never need to be paid off, but I work my ass off for my grades, even if other people are paying for it because my mother can't afford to. I was better off without having the best everything, because it's helped me now that I'm older. I've spent money on a laptop and a tablet this year because I earned it, not because I asked for it. I'm able to make wiser choices and help myself, even if that means being frugle (sp?) This winter break I hope I can grab a position around campus to keep working before I come back as a student worker, but I'm also going to let go of a lot of the things I don't use or wear anymore and give them to someone who will. Through growing up the way that I have, I've come to appreciate the little I had then, even though when I was younger, I felt like the odd person out of all my friends. Living within my means has made me who I am and I can finally say that I'm proud of that. :)

The plotline for Ruby's flashback was predictable, but all in all the episode was still interesting. The end/preview still managed to make me get so amped for the next one that when Revenge came on I cried out "rich people problems" and angrily turned off the TV.