#weprogress

I just told a girl from my reserve a bunch of personal stuff and I dont even know her that well. Why that fuck would I do that? I mean we went from talking about music to me spilling my guts out to her. Pretty sure shes never going to talk to me ever again. 

I have friends. I hang out. I like going out. But...I feel like people think I'm boring. Where and when did I forget how to socialize? Even when I'm with friends even cousins! I know they feel awkward talking to me and hanging out with me and i feel just the same way. I'm 22. I have two daughters that I almost never see. I am in college. I have no tattoos or piercings. I am not very family oriented. I live with three white people my age that I don't even really know. Wtf am I doing. What happen. Why am I still trying so hard to be successful? No one even seems to care about what I'm doing. I feel like I want to impress people and show them what I'm capable of as a person but what's the point. We are all already dead right. I have no partner I don't see my kids. I'm too scared to talk to woman these days. It's not that I'm lost I know what it is I'm supposed to be doing but it feels wrong. I dunno.

Tried to go fishing today but my usual spot was washed out so I headed to the little lake. Was rough getting in there with my bike and my fishing rod sticking out of my back pack, kept hitting trees. Casted a few with no luck so headed home, was all frustrated too because my brand new fishing rod broke, I mean really one day of fishing! Oh well. I'll have to get a new one on Friday. Rest of the day was spent jamming with some dude I just met today. But of course I had to bail out at 5:30 for work. Work is boring as usual. But money is money right? Can't wait to go home and enjoy #superbluntsunday