Shinunoga E-Wa - by 藤井風 (Fuji Kaze)  [HELP EVER HURT NEVER]

[Music is a very big part of my life and I’m MOSTLY INCAPABLE of writing without music, so I just thought I'd share what I am listening to while writing this]

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I’ve been wondering.

For the past week, I’ve been wondering about what Jeon Jungkook would do for Park Jimin’s birthday  privately. Because I was 100% sure he wouldn’t appear in JM’s vlive, just as much as I was 100% sure JM wouldn’t vlive from his private home (my reasons being, are probably for another post though … 😁). BUT, at the same time I did  wonder; since JK doesn’t have the excuse of being at the company anymore, and since he is not going to release another 100% centric Jimin GCF; … what is he going to do? So you might be wondering: if you didn;t think he was going to do anything public, why still wonder about what he could do?

MIND YOU, being the private person that he is (they are), I did for the most part  expected JK to not post anything at all. So I was actually at work wanting to talk to my loved one and not being able to (don’t ask…) while waiting for some Jikookers to beg for JK to post something, the whole time thinking “…  it would be nice if they’d leave JK alone, is not like he is going to publicly do anything ..”. AND THEN, the second I thought that, I remember about last years birthday and I was like “🤦🏾‍♀️🙄😒😬…”.

Which brought me right back to the me that had been hypothetically thinking about “if, then what?”. If JK really wanted to publicly wish JM a happy birthday in a still intimate way but still not being caught: HOW THE FUCK WOULD HE DO THAT? 

Believe it or not, I thought he’d rely on his Golden Closet Film. Crazy right?! I mean there is  NOTHING remotely covert about that. To be precise, in my imagination, they’d already be in Busan, and he’d gift us with GCF in BUSAN. But … BRUH~! That would be so fucking OBVIOUS. Like, trying not to be caught wearing a black hat in a sea of white hats obvious. So I kept thinking, and thinking and thinking and fucking thinking and I couldn’t come up with nothing. ABSOLUTELY NOTHING. So I chalked it up to “There’s nothing he could ever do” but BRUH~! Low and behold, not only did he actually pull up for the occasion at STUPID O’CLOCK KST, but, in my opinion, he was extra (which as I watch him almost purring for the cameras I was like … “booooooi if you don’t stop!”) and then, he crowned it all with a BRO. 

B - R - O.

The unrivalled magic word that just by merely uttering it, it’s capable of having a sea of people hella insecure and another strongly rooted in their fraternal beliefs, ALL at the same time. BRO; three letters one (apparent and alleged) meaning; The word that would rule them all. The word that was apparently never used in any other meaning aside from its “blood-relative” dictionary meaning, never in any type of history. JK uttered this word and successfully appeased and potentially misled all those who suddenly got lost. 

Nevermind the shivers I got when JK came on weverse just saying jjyaman... I was like “JK?...👀👀👀” which proved me that I was wrong 😬😬😬

Which he then followed with a happy birthday … to which I was like “oh, I see, okay, never mind, an awkward but simple, happy birthday…”

to then suddenly hit with:

https://twitter.com/btstranslation7/status/1580289116251385856?s=20&t=quaVbt2gZ1zu9XUvmtYjMw

I don’t even know where to begin with this, no cap. Like … FAM, BRUH~, BRO! The whole almost minute before he delivered his very simple message, what was that?! Like WHAT WAS THAT?? Like I know every hater and insecure Jikooker is jumping on the BRO-TRAIN but mate!! Hold that mess for a second … JK looked like he was in a hotel, maybe already from Busan (who knows!!) feeling himself (as he wasn’t in mere pyjamas with bed hair etc …) and making sure that the person to whom the message was address knew about it?? Like … FAM, BRUH~, BRO! A simple “Happy birthday, I hope your wishes come true and bla bla bla … with love your lil bro” would have sufficed. IT REALLY WOULD HAVE. BUT NO BRO. I mean … what the hell was that? If anything, doesn’t that final bro just make you wonder “... okay?”. 

In my very not-humble opinion, that bro was so out of place, it seemed intentional, but then again, I am not JK, so 🙄… BRUH~! I dunno, but I’m you know?!

Always respectfully yours,

i  did  say  i’d  write  you  every  day ,  &  i  meant  that .  i’m  a  man  of  my  word ,  as  you  know  !   i’ve  only  just  gotten  back  to  the  flat  after  seeing  you  off  &  i’m  already  writing  you .  well ,  that’s  not  true .  i  mucked  about  with  the  shop  finances  for  a  little  while  before  giving  up ,  because  you’ve  always  been  better  at  that  stuff  than  me .  don’t  worry ,  fred  &  i’ll  figure  it  out  eventually .  it’s  just  always  so  much  better  when  you’re  here .  

another  shop’s  gone  dark ,  wiseacre’s  wizarding  equipment . or  maybe  they  just  closed  early  today  ?  i  hope  it’s  that .  it  looked  awfully  empty  when  i  looked  in  the  window  on  my  way  back  from  king’s  cross .  honestly ,  sometimes  i  feel  guilty  looking  at  how  well  our  shop  is  doing ...    i’m  pretty  sure  fred  &  i  got  this  lease  so  cheap  since  no  one  else  in  their  right  minds  would  open  a  business  right  now ,  ha .  lucky  that  we’re  not  really  in  our  right  minds  then . 

by  the  way  --  what  are  some  of  your  favourite  muggle  records  ?  i  think  i’ll  get  some  to  play  around  here  when  it’s  too  quiet .  not  that  you’re  loud  or  anything .  i  can’t  explain  it ,  but  even  when  you  were  just  reading  in  your  favourite  armchair  by  the  window ,  it  never  felt  quiet .  i  keep  looking  over  like  maybe  you’ll  still  be  there ,  like  the  sap  that  i  am .  

love  you ,  miss you ,  can’t  wait  to  see  you .  have  a  good  start  of  term .  try  not  to  do  anything  illegal  this  year .  but  if  you  do ,  let  me  know  because  i  want  in .  

yours  till  the  rain  bows ,   george 

Forgive Me - by Chloe x Halle  [Ungodly Hour]

[Music is a very big part of my life and I’m MOSTLY INCAPABLE of writing without music, so I just thought I'd share what I am listening to while writing this]

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Hello Everyone! How’s life been treating you? If it’s been good, I’m hella happy for you! If it’s been shit, I’m up there with you 😬 but hey, we probably used to it, so we’ll be fine (#trust). Now, let’s take a little look at what’s been going on in ARMYworld as of recent (and no, I’ll not address enlistment here, but yes, I will in another post). So, it would appear that pics and videos from「LOVE YOURSELF, SPEAK YOURSELF: The Final」started dropping yesterday and guuurl/boooi/Eeenby… There’s been a little bit of drama aye?!

Mainly between the usual shakespearean factions (... just another way for me to say: DRAMATIC AF GROUPS, aka some group of shippers), which was brought about by one particular clip involving none other than our dearest JK: Surprise, sur-fucking-prise! I swear, the boy can’t take a single step in the general direction of nowhere coz, the second he does, some will measure the distance between his right foot and left and equate it to the distance between either JM or Tae’s right and left foot just to conclude that: [INSERT MOST RECENT CONSPIRACY]. 

Alas, Jeon Jungkook is a powerful Conspiracy Magnet, it's a sad truth. Now, whether or not he actually had an unknowing and unfortunate hand in this predicament, is a post for another time. What we want to do now is to take a look at the clip that caused so much SCANDAL! And take it from there, shall we?:

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Now, before we proceed I’ll need you all to maybe not listen to the song that I am listening to right now, if it is not calming to you. Find a song that keeps you mellow and serene, and ready to observe facts in an educated and unbiased way. When you are all ready, we shall begin, alright?

So to spice things up a little, let’s refer to TKKers as Capulets and JKKers as Montagues, just to keep it in the Shakespearean vibe. As you might and/or might not know, I really hate generalising but, based on experience, the majority of Capulets can’t be reasoned with, like, it’s some crazy-ass-shit up in that neck of the woods, and granted there’s definitely some Montagues that are just as crazy, but the ratio is 9725:1. 

Moving on, following are the families narratives, following the clip in question:

CAPULATES: “Everything Jikook does is scripted”.

MONTAGUES: “Staff knows Jungkook, so where is the lie?”.

For those that may not know, this whole thing escalated hella quick. I was at work, trying to work, while dealing with a personal situation of my own, after which I quickly looked at my timeline and HolyMolyGuacamole. I thought JK couldn’t create a post more controversial than the “Happy Birthday Bro” one but, Bro!, was I wrong! 

Mind you, as per usual the involved Capulates came ready for senseless war, hence Montagues had the right to defend themselves from the dumbest of accusations, but what all of this seemed to cause was a very clear divide of two truths which could both be valid, but my people, we all know that the truth is and always will be one. In this case, the one truth is that JK managed to, unwillingly, put himself on the spot. Yeah ...

And before I continue, I must, and I will, preface that JK does, without a doubt, not only highly respects (amongst many other things) JM but loves Serendipity, immensely as proven by the following:

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(☝🏾 looks like the same tweet, from the beginning of this post, but its not ☝🏾)

Now, try to recall a situation where something happened and regardless of whether the information you are receiving is true or not, you just want to know how this something came to be. If you are like me, and you just need to know, trusting that there is no way in hell your words will be misconstrued, you will ask whatever question. But then, at times, this funny thing happen where, once you’ve spoken you realise that is not just about your curiosity, it’s about everything else related to it, but it’s too late, you’ve spoken up, your words are out in the world and you are on the fucking spot. And many may not know or realise this but, being put on the spot is a flight or fight response.

It is almost spooky weird how sometimes words suddenly seem to change in meaning from how you thought them in your brain after you’ve uttered them [typed them]. Funny ain’t it? Had the meaning of his words not changed, JK (like anyone else) would have stayed silent, waiting for the member of staff to answer his question, as he sat firmly by his own words. But that was definitely not the case. And I’m not sure of the meaning that his sentence morphed into, but JK didn’t stay quiet waiting for a reply from their staff member. No. In fact, he laughed over her words and started poking JM, who actually brought up his finger to do their usual “I am you, you are me” but JK didn’t notice, and he wasn’t going to because I don’t think that was his intent to begin with. His poking, like the laughing, all felt like a reaction to divert attention from what he’d just asked.

Now we can sit here and argue on whether or not it was wrong for the member of staff to have filled in the blanks for JK, homegurl was most likely just doing her job and trying to speed up the process by choosing an answer she believed to be 100% likely. Had she envisioned  JK’s reaction, do you think she would have proceeded with it? She most likely even panicked, perceiving JK’s reaction as a misjudgment and let him know right-away that he could change it.

“It’s all about the delivery!” These are the words I was told by my brother, who's been trying to act as a peacemaker between my mother and I. If I controlled the manner in which I say what I want to say or even at times just refrain from saying certain things, I might bring forth less damage with my mom 😬(but that was very TMI so yeah let's not dwell too much on that…). But the truth is, once again, in my head they all sounded like things I have the right to say, but once they are out, it's like, … damn. And, in my opinion, it’s like JK also felt the same.

JK’s favourite song might have been Euphoria, which is not a stretch, we all know that homeboi loves that song in particular. But regardless of why he decided to still go ahead with Serendipity, he obviously made it known that he was going to, if not Jimin would not have been literally all up in his face asking him “which one did you like the best?”

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What actually is the point in all of this is how he decided to reveal said selection. JM was all in his face? JK could have replied by singing and staying in his place. But no. He counter-attacked Jimin’s face-up and got closer himself, and you’ll notice JM taking steps back as JK keeps moving forward, while they maintain eye-contact. I mean …

Hence, If I were the person who had to write the scenario/script for this part of the concert, hoping for the best outcome, ideally, with a band like BTS, you’d have all members naturally interact with each other. Having JK just choose his own song wouldn’t have served for much interaction with anyone, so I’m guessing homegurl stopped and thought “who does he usually interact with? What song does he usually sing?” and she got her answer. And hey! I might be wrong, so please let me know another song by any of the other members of BTS which JK sang, and mimicked as often as Serendiptiy; … I’ll be waiting.

Always respectfully yours,

﹙ *  ♚  ﹚▌▌ ❝   hate you?   ❞ penny repeats. the words fall like acid rain from her mouth, AS IF THE DISDAIN FROM THEIR SENTIMENT ALONE IS ENOUGH TO BURN. her nose scrunches. horrified confusion contorts her expression as an ache emerges thunderously in the crux of her core. she has made a lot of mistakes in her life. the mirrors are all jagged, some even turned around, & every wine glass in the house has had its stem imprinted on her right hand with a force to be reckoned with. but out of all of her mistakes, she never thought subjecting cadence to even the idea that she could be hated BY HER would be one of them. ❝   i could never hate you, cadence.   ❞ OF COURSE SHE DOESN'T KNOW, she thinks. cadence couldn't understand the war of a mother that pounded battle drums next to her beating organ in cadence's very own name because well, cadence wasn't one, because she was too young, and mostly— because penny never allowed her to. she was salt air and outdoor exercise, brisk to the touch and harsh to the bone. the rest was hers to bear. ❝   nothing that has happened or, or, or - COULD happen, would change that. where would you ... even get that from? i don't understand.   ❞

 if veera had little energy left in him to at least lift an arm , he wastes it on grunting out a response to his boyfriend . he wants to say many things , from ‘ i told you we have to go to a birthday party tomorrow so maybe we shouldn't have gone for round three or four ‘ , to ‘ you have the audacity to tell me we've slept in ?? ‘ . but what leaves his mouth is a mere noise of acknowledgement , soft and tired , a little throaty because time and tay were on a vacation and they didn't have anyone to hear them but the poor neighbors probably .

 his arms are shoved beneath his pillow , one cheek pressed snugly against the soft surfaces while he blinked his eyes open a few times . venice’s face in front of him — as handsome as ever . veera can only guess how messy he looked right now with his fucked up makeup and marked neck . his irritation dies the moment venice flashes him a cheeky grin in greeting , and despite himself he's smiling . turning his head to hide it against the pillow and his arm as he mumbles sleepily ; ❛ i know exactly who to blame for that . ❜  his whole body shifts with a soft moan , upper half faces the ceiling as he lowers the duvet a little to pull venice closer to himself . allowing a loving peck to his dyed locks , veera doesn't get up . only traps venice’s neck between his arms and stares up at him with hooded eyes . a light flush to his cheeks — he smiles a little bit , simply because venice is way too handsome to be perceived in the morning . he still looks a bit dazed , like last night , letting his gaze brush over venice’s features as he mumbles ;  ❛ i think i can't walk . ❜

This series has me basically going “... AAAAAND low and behold ...”. 

Also, it just me being EVEN more sarcastic and cynical than what I usually am

 ... yeah 😬.

1 - ... BRUH~!

2 - Let’s Watch A Clip!

3 - It’s Been 1 Month BRO!