#weilenicarus

Cal designated today as a chill day for me and he just let me sleep unbothered and brought me brunch in bed and let me just chill and watch shows endlessly and do whatever. And it’s so nice having him home, I feel bad because his dream was to study in Australia and he was doing it but left early but... he came home because ‘family comes first’. and I really appreciate that. I really appreciate having him by my side through all this and... I guess I didn’t realize how much I missed him until he was hugging me. 

I cried so hard when I first saw him. And having him home is like a breath of fresh air. I love him so much and I am so thankful for his reassurance and his hugs and his voice of reason and... 

Can we just appreciate this recording of Cal and Justin high from two years ago? I found this on my laptop and I appreciate this immensely right now. 

Note: Some of the things they say could be offensive and they have both since apologized and do not usually speak this way. 

Cal is the one who first says, “this app is fucking weird”

Me: I love you

Cal: I love you to the moon and back... and some more

Me: To the universe and back?

Cal: Nah, more.

Me: ...to infinity and beyond?

Cal: ...

Cal: ...I walked right into that one, didn't I?

Me: That makes me the Woody to your Buzz.

And you still haven’t sent me a picture of a koala bear. I’m mad at you for that too. 

This whole studying abroad thing is dumb. 

Not really. But. Meh. 

Dusty and I will just watch movies tonight. You’re missing out.

I’m just. Really glad that we’re married. I feel like if I didn’t have him then it would be impossible for me to find someone that understanding. Especially around here. He just gets me and. I’m so lucky for that. 

But not only are they helping me and getting me to and from my treatments but they've also been helping my aunt, who has stage four breast and lung cancer that has since spread through her body and brain, during her treatments and getting her to the hospital and home, staying there until her husband or my cousins get home to help her. 

The fact that they would do that for my family makes me so happy. Like. It helps, so much. My mom isn't well enough herself to do it and my sister lives too far away to make that drive every day. It would be up to me but between myself and taking care of my mom I couldn't possibly help my aunt on my own.

I thank you two gentlemen so much because you both have hearts of gold and you're so selfless and loving. I am so grateful to have you in my life. You are both so incredible. 

I love you Cay.

I love you Dustball.