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Anecdote... itās funny because as soon as you mention these exercises my mind goes blank, as if Iāve literally done nothing in the past week other than exist in a state of existential terror. OH I went to the gym a few times okay
Got home at around ten to five which is a little earlier than usual I think? No wait itās not itās normal time, and got changed for the gym downstairs as Iām a lazy bum and know I wonāt go otherwise. Left the house in my hoodie, it was raining but the wind wasnāt as strong so my hood stayed up. I noted it was still light out and that the days were getting longer and wondered if it would still be light when I left. Only a few minutes walk including through the swing park to get the gym.Ā
As usual I got out my membership card before getting to the desk to make sure I wouldnāt fumble and asked if I could use the fitness room. I was too quiet when asking so had to repeat myself - idk why I find this one of the most anxious part but there we go.Ā
My usual locker was being used! So tried to pick another, one on the other side on the end smelt bad (always pick the one on the end so I can just change shoes in front of the locker and not get in peopleās way) so picked the one next to my usual. The wristband felt weird, a little looser than the usual one.
There was still a slot for the running machine and I managed to find a really good song with a great bpm so ended up upping the pace a little.Ā
This is going to be really dumb and I need to accept that. :SCREAM:
I threw myself over the threshold, a sack of potatoes [sorry] bruised from the long winter of the dayās stress, but knowing this was not the end. The gym beckoned, a mix of guilt andĀ āyou shouldās and promises (were they false?) of achievement winding their way over park and house, a calling, a song only those brave enough to [go drag there, adventure there] could ever repeat to others [like boasting?].
I must be like those others, those happy, confident few who achieve their dreams [blaaaah no metaphor] and so I stow away my recalcitrance, peelingĀ
WHAT WAS THAT ALL THE TIME THE FUCK?
:( :( :( :(Ā
I find it so hard :( I even tried to not get too caught up thinking and even ignored a lot of the inner critic to the point I donāt even want to look back at it but urgh I got nowhere :(
Itās so frustrating because I struggle with sensory stuff and whilst I can pick up overarching themes (like you can see one above and where it was probably going to go) actually executing it all is so hard :(Ā
Just a bit annoyed I guess. Huff... I know objectively Iām making progress and Iām finding what I need to practice but god I feel like the cogs are rusty in my head and I hate that feeling so Iām just going to grumble. GRUMBLE OVER OKAY Iām going to fix up some deltoids and pectorals on an illustration D:<.Ā
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