#wechanged

Although life has moved on, there are still some days that are hard to get through without you and at night it is almost unbearable at times. Things will happen and you're the first person I want to tell or talk to about it. Going to school without you for the first time was unexpectedly hard. It didn't feel right. And oh god laying here at night, alone wishing I was in your arms is heart braking. I can't stop imagining your body against mine, both our fingers intertwined with one another's, the touch of your kiss on the back of my neck, and the way you always made me feel so safe when I was by your side. I remember that look you used to give me, the look that told me I was the single most important thing in your life and you would die without me, the look that told me you were uncontrollably in love with me. But then I remember that look fading, and eventually no longer existing. Those once passionate nights soon turning into long sleepless nights awaiting your arrival. And to be honest, I'm not sure which of these memories kills me more..