#weaponizedsouls

I’m big tired rn so this isn’t gonna be like... fully coherent but I will do my best.

The tl;dr is that in “something here will eventually have to explode” the “something” is both “the world” and “whatever feelings Aziraphale and Crowley have for each other that they don’t and won’t talk about”.

Here is Have To Explode by The Mountain Goats, for anyone who doesn’t know it.

When the Under Pressure trailer came out at the beginning of March I wrote up a meta about what specifically it was in the existing material for the show so far that made me think that as far as show canon is concerned, Aziraphale and Crowley used to be much closer and had broken up or drifted apart prior to the eleven years before the apocalypse. This tag is full of other stuff about this topic because when these excerpts from the upcoming script book came out everyone in my tumblr circle lost their minds about the fact “there isn’t an ‘our side’, not anymore, it’s over” reads like a breakup or the echo of a breakup. 

Anyway. 

Consider Aziraphale and Crowley trying to save the world, both knowing it’s only a matter of time before they have to acknowledge that they don’t have to be doing this, they don’t need the world to stay the same. Technically they have sides and allegiances and technically they don’t owe anything to each other. Maybe they did once, but they had their chance and they fucked it up and now they know they have a very limited timeframe in which to fix it. 

“the stage is setsomeone’s gonna do something someone else will regret”

that’s the world ending and the knowledge that the people who are ending the world (heaven and hell) are an entirely different group of people than those who are going to bear the consequences of that decision (all of earth but also the two of them)

“i speak in smoke signals and you answer in code” 

that’s the pair of them talking past each other even as they try to work together, because they can acknowledge that they like the world but they can’t acknowledge why it’s so important that they be able to keep liking it. 

“the fuse will have to run out sometimesomething here will eventually have to explode, have to explode” 

they both know its coming (the apocalypse or the inevitable moment where they have to confront each other, the moment where they both have to acknowledge they still care)

“name one thing about us two anyone could love” 

I can’t even get into this line because it makes me fully emo but it centers the whole tone of the song and the whole context that goes with it for the purpose of this meta as highly self-depreciating. They are both big time regretful they spent so long at odds with each other now there’s so little time left. 

“five, four, three, two, one, watch for the flash”

Again, very limited timeframe they have in which to fix things, where “things” are both the upcoming apocalypse and also their relationship. You can count down the moments, even, near the end. 

So yeah there you have it, that’s why Have To Explode is making me cry on this here evening.

Eyyyyyyyy, thanks!

D: Is there a song or playlist to associate with ^I’m not typing out my long-ass title again?

Well, when I was writing it I was mainly listening to the Pixar’s Inside Out soundtrack! It’s probably one I’m gonna make a playlist for one of these days since it’s gonna be a series, but in the meantime odd songs wise I’d say Stop The Dams by Gorillaz, Ready To Go (Get Me Out Of My Mind) by Panic! at the Disco, Ribs by Lorde, and also Here Comes a Thought from Steven Universe!

R:Are there any writers (fanfic or otherwise) you consider an influence?

Douglas Adams has probably had the heftiest influence on my sense of humour and how I write it! In terms of fanfic I’d say @victorluvsalice has infected me with her love of long and convoluted AUs, and @lavellington makes me want to write better, funnier fluff ^_^

S:Any fandom tropes you can't resist?

Fic tropes I can’t get enough of are soulmate AUs, fake-dating AUs and I also absolutely love wing fics!

Thanks dear!!! This was fun ^_^ 

hwaet is the MBMBaM reference???

Ah yes the one-two punch of PTA + MBMBaM that had me rolling:

Esme: “You may have found a way to stall but sooner or later the show will go on and there will be blood.” Esme: “Unless...” Klaus: “Unless?” Olaf: “Unless---” Esme: “You give me what I want.”

I LOVE WHEN THEY ARE IN THE SUBMARINE

Is The Penultimate Peril the hotel? That one rules AS WELL