#wealthborn

things you said in your sleep

i. “Daddy, I’ll protect you.” But you already do. I hope I’m not heavy, but your will reinforces my spine and I feel I can face it all. You haven’t just uttered these precious words, I wrote them down years ago so that I could remember how you were. My journals, my black books, became pages that I’d reread when I’d forget how quickly time passes. In this book, you’re seven and your head rests on my lap. I’ve turned the TV off because I know the slightest noise will wake you when you’re napping like this. In anger, half an hour ago, you ripped your favourite sweater and looking at it now reminds me that I can’t protect you. But I also shouldn’t want to, because to feel is to be vulnerable and you need anger to teach you humility, and to teach you resolution, and forgiveness. I found an old journal from when you were young, and memories flooded as if everything happened yesterday. I do not age, I’m old forever; if not for you, my life would feel like limbo. This said, I can’t wait until you’re grown and you’re out there experiencing the world. I hope it’s kinder to you.

ii. “Maxine,” you whine and a shot of dread pales my face. I turn the television up, hoping to wake you. As long as you’re safe, I don’t mind what you do or who you see, but under no circumstances do I want to be in the same room as you mutter your ex-girlfriend’s name in your sleep. Just in case. MTV wakes you and pop-trash greets you back into consciousness. With a heavy frown on your face, you turn to me and say, “you know when you wake up wanting to kill someone?” I exhale a sigh of relief as I turn the volume back down, and you don’t notice either.

I’M YELLING ABT THIS MESSAGE!!!!!

listen ok first thing’s first i am glad that i now have a Seal of Approval ™ for this book bc i’m really curious to read it now that i’ve seen that quote bc like

i don’t think i will find anything more #accurate in terms of his psychology and his motives for killing and i could genuinely talk about this for a year or five and how fucked up it is that he genuinely thrives on creating that particular brand of emotional chaos in his victims and!!!! i just!!!!!

GD LUCK

         she  looks  too  pretty  to  be  out  on  her  own  and  too  young  to  be  out  at  all  ;  visions  of  stress  creasing  her  brow  as  she  realises  she’s  been  separated  from  her  friends  flicker  and  of  a  full  ,  cherried  mouth  pursing  flicker  through  his  mind  .  wyatt  wastes  no  time  in  deciding  that  she  looks  the  type  to  resent  being  FORGOTTEN  but  that  does  not  take  well  to  direct  advances  .  she  will  be  wily  but  she  will  be  worth  it  and  if  anyone  is  up  for  the  job  it’s  him  .  sidles  up  to  the  bar  and  eases  himself  onto  the  stool  beside  her  .  a  smile  (  POLITE  ,  the  sort  you  flash  at  someone  that’s  held  a  door  for  you  )  and  then  he  is  ignoring  her  .

1.) Arianna Maddalena Elisabeth di Marchioni was born after a long, hard labor that left the young Queen Elisabeth barely able to lift her head. Her father, King Gustavo, was clearly disappointed that his foreign stranger-bride had not provided him a male heir, but maintained that if they could produce a healthy girl-child on the first go, many boys would surely follow.

2.) Arianna, called ‘Anna by her mother, was a wild and willful young thing. She would much rather ride her horse or try to spar with the squires than attend to her royal duties. Her mother often joked that she was more storm than girl.

3.) When Arianna was nine, her beloved mother passed away — The childbed took her, as it did so many women. The babe became stuck somewhere deep inside, and poor Elisabeth bled to death before the physicians could save her. The infant, pulled dead from the mother’s opened belly, was a boy.

4.) With the death of her mother, Arianna realized that her father may never have a son — Leaving her, the eldest of his two daughters, his heiress presumptive. With that in mind, Arianna applied herself with a renewed energy to her studies, and to caring for her younger sister, Iduna. If she was to be queen, she would make herself a queen her parents could be proud of.