#we luv

One day

For me to sleep

And drink tea

And sleep some more

And read

And write

And draw

And just not drown

I'm so sick of drowning

I thought I'd run out of air by now

But I'm still alive

Screaming bubbles of rage

Salt of my tears mixing with the ocean's

I tried to swim

I'm trying I swear

But it's like the water latches onto my arms

Tugs at my legs

Yanks on my hair

Stay stay stay

Whispering in my ear

Stay stay stay

What can the world give you?

It's alright down here

In the dark watery depths

I should be swimming right?

But to swim I need rest

And rest is the last thing I have

Teach me how to swim again

I think I forgot

Because no matter how I kick

No matter how I struggle

I just stay put

And the ocean keeps whispering

Stay stay stay

You can hardly remember anything else

Why would you leave now

What if the world is no better above the water

What if breathing air is like breathing fire

And I don't know

I don't know how to do this

I don't know how to be okay

I'm scared if I make it up

I'll have spent so long in the dark

Spent so long in the water

The sun will hit me and I'll burst into flames

I'll breathe and taste ash

Choke on hot flames

So maybe I should stay

Just here

Just drowning

I mean...