Jul 27
Oh I just had it all click together.
I’m not afraid of living my truth.
I’m afraid of the consequences of living my truth.
Will he still want me?
Will he still be attracted to me?
Will he still love me?
If those things change, fucking everything changes
And I don’t know if I’m brave enough or strong enough for that,
No matter how much I think I want it.
And it’s hard because I still love him, so so fucking much and I always will.
He’s a part of me and has been since the second we locked eyes.
I know I could go on without him,
But I don’t fucking want to.
So what am I even trying to do?
How am I still old and still such a mess?
oh god please still love me
