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Dear Cha Mommy.

My time with you was actually the most fun iv’e ever had. I remember our day at the beach, and i hope you do as well. You were the reason i had the courage to go in the water, and even do it a second time. Well… to be honest, the biggest reason as to why i did that was… i just wanted you to be proud of me.

I hope you were, you will probably be disappointing at me due to what i’m about to do to myself. You are my mother and i don’t ever want anybody to think that you weren’t. So if anyone asks “what was your relationship with Rivor”, don’t think twice, slap them if you have to.

I know i promised that i would let you train me and not have to go to that club anymore, but.. i’m sorry. This is the reason as to why i’m leaving… i can’t do good things.

But you WILL keep that necklace, please. It will probably be the only thing you will remember me by. I left a video tape in the camera… i tried to record my voice but… i’m not sure how to use it. I might have been able to record a little bit, just so you won’t forget my voice.

I’m sorry we couldn’t get closer as mother and son… the way i always wanted…