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001.  ECHO AND HELO DETECTED THEIR CONNECTION AT AGE OF FIVE.    neither really knows if they shared the connection for years beforehand,   but they can both distinctly remember feeling it then.  echo was in trouble for stealing food to survive,    and she was punished with a handful of lashes against her right side.    she still has a small scar to this day.     helo felt her pain;   not only the physical hurt of the tip of the leather slicing into her skin,    but also the emotional,     as she tried not to cry.  he frantically checked his skin for any marks or scarring, but found no trace of the sudden onslaught of pain.     in turn,  she felt his confusion & fear.     they were both left momentarily paralyzed from the unexpected assault of emotions not entirely their own. 

002.  HE IS THE REASON SHE ENTERED THE CITY OF LIGHT.      if there’s anything echo is skilled at, it’s hiding.    she managed to escape ALIE a handful of times,    slipping away into darkness when her fellow clansmen came for her.     this worked for awhile   -   until helo.    whether ALIE know about & intentionally used their connection to achieve her goal,    neither of them know. but when helo was tortured on that cross,   echo felt every ounce of his pain.     she dropped to her knees and writhed in agony, barely muffling the piercing sound of her screams.     the pain she could handle, though;    it was what came afterwards:     the bliss.    the peace that came over helo when he took the chip,   and which echo felt just enough to dampen her resolve.     she had never known a ceasing of pain quite like this,    and so she wanted it.  desperately.    became intoxicated with the serenity she felt radiating from him.   she stopped fighting,   choosing instead to stay rooted in her spot until ALIE’s people came from her.     echo entered the city of light because she felt how serene helo was in its presence.

003. THEY DID NOT PHYSICALLY FIND ONE ANOTHER UNTIL AFTER THE CITY OF LIGHT.      once ALIE’s programming gained access to the very core of who both echo and helo are,     their connection was discovered   -   but not by them.     she carefully kept them separated as a tactical move,    knowing their bond was dangerous and perhaps capable of overcoming the chip if under the right circumstances.     it was after they were released that they began to hear each other’s thoughts and feel their touch,   which led them to finding one another in polis. 

004.  SHE STRUGGLES TO ACCEPT HOW DEEPLY HE UNDERSTANDS HER.     she’s better about it now, but echo still doesn’t like that helo can read her emotions.     she can never hide anything from him, or pretend she’s okay when she isn’t.    in the beginning, she would be outright mean to him when she was upset,     not knowing how to process the fact this man understood everything she felt and thought.      she could wear a mask with everyone but him,  her lifetime of warrior training doing little to mask her emotions from him.     eventually she learned to just accept his comforting presence,    to let him hold her when he knows she needs it.   even so, she continues to be a little disgruntled that she can’t mask pain from him.

005. THEY SPENT TWO MONTHS AFTER PRAIMFAYA THINKING THE OTHER WAS DEAD.     their connection fizzled because the distance between them was so great,     and the distinct absence there made them scared the other was gone.      they found one another again because of the algae,     interestingly enough.       she went into a four-day coma,     and when she woke up,    he was there.     in her unconscious mind, she had reached for him so hard that their connection was revived.     before alerting anyone she was awake,     she laid there on that cot and let him hold her for as long as their connection would last.      they were both overwhelmed with relief that the other was alive.

006. THEIR BIGGEST STRUGGLE WILL PROBABLY ALWAYS BE OCTAVIA.    helo is devoted to the woman who wants echo banished from safety.   as you can imagine,   this puts a small strain on their relationship.   it’s the area in which his allegiance is torn   –   the woman he loves and is connected to on such an incredibly deep level,    versus the woman he vowed to follow through it all.     echo wasn’t in that bunker with them,    so she doesn’t know what they faced together  —  only that she feels his devotion,   his torrent of emotions,   and she loathes being the reason he’s so torn.    she tries to tell him it’s okay, that he can choose octavia and she will prove herself,   but it’s difficult for both of them.      there’s all this longing and emotion from six years apart shared between them.    they’re miserable.

007.  AFTER THEY WAKE UP FROM CRYO,  THEY’RE TOGETHER.   officially,  though neither of them bothers announcing it.   she’s proven herself enough to be granted a place on the ship,   and he doesn’t have to feel quite so torn anymore.   though they’ve made their mistakes (namely  echo sleeping with someone else on the ring during their time apart),   they know their connection is unwavering.   whatever comes their way,  they’ll figure it out.   he’s her person,   and she’s his.

“   it’s not my blood,   ”   zara spoke quickly,   a look of panic settling in her eyes as they fixate on helo’s figure.   she had left with someone just thirty minutes ago,   only to return back to camp by herself with evidence of bloodshed on her skin and clothes.   “   i don’t know what happened.   ”

there is a warm feeling that settled within her as soon as her gaze found helo,   but it doesn’t change the lost look in her eyes   —   the blank expression on her features and the nervousness that consumed her.   her voice,   usually strong,   was soft when she spoke,   “   helo   ...   i gave you   my spot   in the bunker.   ”

@warsache   ,    headcanons

selene  definitely  looked  up  to  max ,  especially  because  she  was  able  to  escape  manticore  in  2009.   when  max  had  said  that  splitting  up  was  a  bad  idea ,  she  agreed  with  her.   the  last  thing  she  wanted  to  do  was  be  alone ,  and  even  though  they  ended  up  going  their  separate  ways  it  was  just  another  thing  that  selene  admired  about  the  girl. 

ill follow it next year

@warsache   ,    meme

the  first  time  she  sees  him ,   she  feels  like  she  can’t  breathe.   he  was  vital  in  everyone’s  escape ,  and  though  the  pair  weren’t     that  close     while  in  manticore ,   she’s  thankful  to  see  someone  she  knows.    she  remains  hidden ,  not  wanting  to  give  up  her  location  quite  yet.   it  was  more  for  her     own     safety  than  anything.  she  had  spent  so  long  trying  to  find  the  others ,   spent  so  long  trying  to  keep  herself     alive    and  she  wasn’t  about  to  expose  herself  to  someone  she  couldn’t  trust  to  be  alone ,   or  on  a  mission.

it  wasn’t  until  she  heard  the  rustling  of  leaves  near  her  home ,  a  few  months  later ,   that  she  went  to  check  it  out.    this  time ,   she’s  prepared.   she’s  ready  for  whoever  it  could  be.   when  she  sees  him  for  the  second  time ,   when  she  hears  him  say  her  name ,  the  tension  in  her  shoulders  drop ,  and  she  lets  herself  fall  into  him.    she’s  relieved  that  he’s     alive ,      especially  after  the  radio  silence  that  was  the  rest  of  the  escaped  group.   

she  lets  him  into  her  home ,      lets  him  stay ,     and  she  starts  to  feel  this  pull  towards  him.   he  tells  her  about  all  the  things  he’s  done  and  she  can’t  help  but  feel  a  little  bit     jealous    about  the  fact  that  he  was  so  carefree  when  it  came  to  his  abilities ,  while  she  was  still  hating  herself  for  the  things  her  hands  have  caused.   she  hopes  one  day  it’ll  be  different ,  that  she  won’t  think  of  herself  as  a  murderer.   but  for  now ,  she’ll  keep  listening  to  his  stories ,  and  keep  holding  onto     hope.

i  don’t  know  what  you’re  talking  about ???  we  never  match ???

HEADCANON  QUESTIONS ,   always  accepting

i’d  like  to  start  this  off  by  saying  the  likelihood  of  selene  ever  becoming  a  mother   (  becoming  pregnant ,  carrying  to  term ,  giving  birth )   is      extremely  low.      this  is  due  to  some  of  her  DNA  not  being  created  correctly ,  as  well  as  the  extreme  survival  situations  she  endured  before  finding  her  home  after  the  09  manticore  escape.   like  any  other  transgenics ,   she  has  the  ability  to  get  pregnant ,   but  she’s  almost     always      suffered  from  a  miscarriage  pretty  early  throughout.   

so ,   if  she  ever  fell  pregnant  and  made it  to  the  second  trimester  of  her  pregnancy ,  she’d  start  to  become  more  and  more  happy  about  the  idea  of  becoming  a  mother.   she’d  start  nesting ,  making  a  room  for  her  child ,  decorating the  room  with  a  lot  of  pale  yellows  and  greens ,   because  if  she  were  to  ever  be  pregnant ,   it  would  in  her  eyes ,   be  a     miracle.     she’d  listen  to  all  sorts  of  music ,  read  all  sorts  of  books ,  anything  and  everything  she  could  so  not  only  she  would  be  well  informed ,  but  as  a  way  to  bond  with  her  baby. 

after  childbirth ,  she  wouldn’t  be  able  to  put  her  baby  down.   she’d  be  exhausted ,  but  she’s  worked    so  hard    to  bring  this  child  into  the  world ,  and  she’s  just  so    happy    that  she  doesn’t  even  think  about  putting  them  down.   she’d  try  and  be  all  of  the  things  her  own  mother  was  not ,  so  she’d  raise  her  child  with  love  and  attention  and  affection  and  encourage  them  that  they  don’t  have  to  feel  alone.   she’d  be  very  hands  on  as  a  mother ,  wanting  to  do  everything  with  them ,  and  the  light  you’d  typically  see  from  selene  gets  increased     dramatically    if  there’s  a  child  present.