(I’m going to write a short one about how he felt and what he was thinking after that fateful night when he reclaimed his happiness. He wouldn’t have known what it all meant so I wonder how he saw it! Thanks for the ask!)
Hey other me, nice to be talking to you again. It’s been awhile, hasn’t it? You know you’ve gotten me in so much trouble. Almost got Shadow and her friend killed. Almost got me killed. I exposed my family. All just for a quick buck.
But something happened. I was so caught up in all that misery. In being anything but content and happy. I feel like I forgot what I loved about being me. No- not about being me, about feeling happiness. And that it was a thing I deserved to feel. I forgot on purpose and I don’t know why.
I suppose I knew that night changed us somehow. After Leo explained some of the things about this ‘curse’ it made sense. I just assumed Raph was being dramatic and pissy and Don was done with us and it was understandable that I felt distant. And sad.
I changed though. I don’t know why. I saw Raph and how much passion he had for trying to save my sorry ass and it was comforting. Familiar. Maybe it was blood loss but suddenly I just couldn’t understand why I was doing all that to myself. There was no point. No benefit to anyone. And I missed that high of being so full of joy and bliss that no matter how many times Raph kicks my ass I can’t ever want to lose it again.
And my family makes me happy. I’m going to fight for it. It’ll be weird getting used to being ‘me’ again but this is how I’m meant to be. And maybe being me will help get Leo Raph and Don back too.