what am I missing?
act fifteen: “Do you want to see me again?”
feat: bang chan x f.reader, seo changbin x f.reader, han jisung x f.reader
↳ in your mid to late twenties you’re left wondering if you missed your sexual awakening. With a the help of friends you start to really find yourself.
𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬: for the story as a whole angst, a little fluff, body image issues, and self doubt, cussing all smut warnings listed below for what is in this story.
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𝐟𝐞𝐞𝐝𝐛𝐚𝐜𝐤 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐫𝐞𝐛𝐥𝐨𝐠 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐭𝐚𝐠𝐬 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐠𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐭𝐥𝐲 𝐚𝐩𝐩𝐫𝐞𝐜𝐢𝐚𝐭𝐞 𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝 𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐦𝐲 𝐟𝐢𝐜𝐬.
𝐚𝐧: sorry it’s been so long the summer was hard for me. please let me know your predictions for what is going to happen.
𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬: for the story as a whole, oral (fem & male receiving), piv, unprotected sex, groping, use or traffic light system, choking, and spanking, the mc calls herself a slut more warning to come. Soft but dominant jisung, kinda sub reader for jisung. Being tied up during sex, anal play, use of a butt plug, names such as baby, princess and good girl, Changbin is a little pushy here but everything that happens is because the reader agrees. The reader knows they can fully say no and not do anything.
It’s the night of mutual friend of yours Hyunjin’s birthday. He’s throwing a huge party at his house he shares with your other friends Minho and Felix. You originally planned on taking a taxi over but before you could even think about it Changbin asked if you could go together.
Sitting in the passenger seat of his car his hand rests on your thigh as he drives down the road humming along to the radio.
Before Changbin picked you up, both Chan and Jisung texted you letting you know they’ll be at the party.
Changbin parks his car down the street. He got out of his car quickly and walked over and opened your door as you were applying a light coat of lipgloss. He helps you out and takes your hand.
“Am I allowed to kiss you?” He asked.
“Of course you can.”
He pulls you close to him. Holding your face with both hands he leans in and slowly kisses. He pulls away and you notice the shine of your lipgloss on his lips. Reaching up you run your thumb across his bottom lip removing the remnants of your lipgloss.
“I like being able to kiss you,” he says.
You can’t help but smile at his words. There’s a warmth that takes over your chest. He takes your hand leading you down the street towards the party.
Walking into the crowded room you can’t help but feel a little awkward. You've never attended one of these parties with a date. You glance toward Changbin and instantly notice how happy he looks. He makes you feel suddenly confident.
Entering the kitchen you find Jisung making a drink while talking to Minho. The moment he hears Changbin’s voice he looks behind him and lights up at the sight of you.
Jisung pulls you into him. He leans in and presses his lips to yours for a quick kiss. You pull back with eyes wide wondering if anyone is paying attention to the fact that Jisung kissed you.
“Ji-“
“Am I not allowed to kiss you?” He smiles.
“You can kiss me it’s just-“ you came here with Changbin and you weren’t sure if people around would question why Jisung kissed you.
“I know you’re a busy girl. How do I schedule another night with you?” He tilts your head up so you’re staring into his warm eyes.
“Do you want to see me again?”
“Absolutely. How about we go see that new movie we talked about and then I could blow your back out?” He raised his eyebrows suggestively.
“YN?” You pull away from Jisung to find Changbin leaning against the counter smiling. “Jisung.” He nods his head at his friend who is holding your hand while talking to you.
“Bin I’m trying to have a moment with our girl.” He steps away from you smiling.
The party is kind of a blur. You make your way around holding Changbin’s hand as he talks to a lot of people. Changbin is one of those people who everyone seems to be drawn to. Everyone seems to know him and always wants to talk to him. You only leave him when you find Chan in the kitchen making himself a drink.
“Hey Chan.”
He looks up and smiles at you. You want to wrap your arms around him and kiss him, but you know you shouldn’t. “Where is Bin?” He asked.
“He’s talking to Hyunjin.”
“Have you been avoiding me at this party?” You noticed he hasn't tried talking to you at all tonight.
“I’m not really avoiding you. I’m just trying to let Changbin have his own time with you. I hope if I was on a date with you Bin would give us our space.”
This conversation with Chan feels weird and you wish you could fully explain it.
“Oh I understand. Would you prefer I leave you alone?”
He shakes his head, “I don’t want you to ever leave me alone. I just think Changbin wants space with you tonight.”
You watch Chan's eyes shift looking over your shoulder. You automatically know Changbin is behind you. The feeling of his hands on your waist lets you know you were correct.
“I’m gonna go talk to Seungmin,” Chan dismissed himself quickly from the conversation.
The whole time you walk around the party with Changbin your brain keeps thinking about your conversation with Chan. You wish that you could turn your brian off and just let yourself enjoy the night.
As the night progresses you notice that Changbin is getting more and more handsy. You aren’t shocked when he leads upstairs towards a bathroom away from the crowd of the party.
The moment he pushes you up against the locked bathroom door your eyes go wide. His smirk is enough to make your knees weak.
“Changbin we’re at a party,” you sigh.
“So,” he shrugs. “We’re upstairs and everyone is downstairs.”
“What if someone hears?”
“That didn’t stop you when we fucked in that bathroom at the bar.” A hot wave of embarrassment instantly washes over you.
“Bin-“
“Come on, just play a little with me.”
“What if someone hears?”
“Baby-“ he drags his thumb across your bottom lip. “I don’t care if anyone hears.” The way he’s looking at you intoxicatingly. “I just wanna make you feel good. Let me, finger you.” You don’t say anything, you just stare at him silently for a moment. “If you don’t want to do anything. I don’t want to pressure you into anything.” You know he would never make you do something you don’t want to do.
“But Chan and Jisung are here.” you’re trying to remind yourself that the idea that fooling around with Changbin at this party is insane.
“Last time I checked you’re allowed to sleep with any of us as you please. But like I told you I’m not pressuring you into having sex right now. If you don’t want to, we don’t have to. The ball is in your court just like it always is.”
He’s not wrong, you aren’t tied to any of the boys more than the other.
You take a deep breath trying to shut off your brain. Leaning forward you crash your lips into his. His hands roam your body as he continues to kiss you.
It’s not long before your underwear are on the floor and Changbin’s pants are pushed down. Sitting on the edge of the counter with your legs parted. He slowly pushes into you without giving you time to adjust to this size. You have one hand tangled in his hair while the other is gripping his shoulder. He crashes his lips into attempting to muffle your moans. You don’t want the whole party to know what’s unfolding in the bathroom between you.
He’s thrusting into you at a quick pace. You know you won’t last long. You can already feel the coil in your stomach start to tighten. He must notice you’re on the brink of falling apart. He pulls his lips away from yours and whispers, “fuck you’re so tight.”
“I’m close,” you whimper.
“Fuck,” his hand grips your thigh.
“Please-“
“Cum for me.”
Your grip in his hair tightens as you fall part. Your chest rises and falls as you try your hardest to stay silent as your high washes over you. His grip on your thigh tightens as find his own release.
The way Changbin is looking at you makes you feel guilty. His look isn’t lust filled, it's the look of a man who deeply cares about you.
You know right then and there you’re in love with Changbin, the problem is you aren’t only in love with him. You know immediately you can’t keep doing this.












