grief and loss made me feel so wilted :/ for a good 3 years. and still just going about by day can be really frustrating because it feels like i'm starting over with nothing. some days it takes so much effort to reignite the passion and will that i know i still have. i could say that i'm too young to feel like this, but i woke up this morning with a really lucid memory of my 18th year and remembered that i have a great capacity for change :3. neuroplasticity clearly loves me so that part doesn't really matter.
naturally on a random night every six months it'll feel like there's a black hole in my chest but otherwise i'm literally okay? i LOVE being able to earnestly say that??? & i AM gassing myself up because of how persistent i was in my meditation and somatic therapy when i realized that talk therapy wouldn't do anything to help me. idk i'm just proud of myself
