Itās not something he should have to think about. Mark shouldnāt have to fret over what exactly Oscarās going to ask him for, pulling him to the back of the garage where thereās no one and nothing to watch. He shouldnāt have to worry about this, but he knows heās the one whoās gotten himself here.
Oscar, shoulders squared, fists curled loose but resolute at his sides. Heās smiling up at Mark and itās not shy but itās not particularly smirky, either. A familiar determination.
āWhat can I do for ya,ā Mark says, like he doesnāt know. Oscarās eyes narrow. He licks his bottom lip, sucks it into his mouth. Mark canāt be expected to think about anything but doing that himself. About Oscarās soft lips, how they might give under Markās teeth.
āSāalmost break,ā Oscar says, casual. āWonāt be seeing you as much.ā He looks a bit strained about it, behind his brittle little shield of confidence.
āFor, what, two weeks?ā Mark wonāt say it but heās been thinking about it too. He doesnāt like Oscar gone too far from him for too long. Two weeks on two separate continents shouldnāt be as much of a problem as heās making it.
āTwo weeks is a while,ā Oscar says. A car outside on the track gets closer, zips by. The doppler effect of it feels somehow physical. Mark sways back as it hits. Oscar sways forward. And at first Mark thinks heās overbalanced, stepping into Markās space and catching himself on Markās chest with both hands.
Butāno. Oscar never does anything without intention, does he?
Oscarās got one hand spread wide over Markās side and with the other heās caught him by his lanyard. Not pulling him down just yet but holding him in place, blinking up at him so slow and doe-eyed itās near hypnotic. Markās eyes slide out of focus with Oscar up so close. The blur of his eyes, the smudge of his pink mouth. Mark gets a hand around Oscarās wrist.
Push back, Mark thinks. Say no.
Oscar tugs at the lanyard. Heās stopped smiling. His eyes have slipped shut and his lips are soft and puckered and he looks fucking cherubic, so innocent and wanting in the wash of the sunset. Something perfect, something ripe, something ready to spoil.
Markās grip slides to Oscarās elbow and he holds him there. Mark pushes him backward, gentle. Oscarās good at covering up expressions. Heās good at never showing his hand. Now he looksādevastated, maybe. Fragile. A glass figure of a fucking fawn that Markās just knocked off a shelf.
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Sometimes, Lando wondered why he even bothered showering in Singapore when it only took ten minutes before he was damp again with sweat. His balls clung to his inner thigh like a sticky hand toy, and no amount of baby powder or subtle adjustment made it any better.
"I feel gross," he whined to Jon, plucking his McLaren polo away from his skin and flapping it as if the air were cool enough to help. When he let go, the fabric stuck to his ribs and belly.
"You are gross," Jon assured him. Not that he looked any better, with perspiration beading across his forehead and damp spots on his chest and under his arms.
"I wish I could have an ice bath back at the hotel," Lando said, dreamily. His room didn't even have a tub, just one of those mega showers you could fit four people in, if you were inclined to try something like that.
Jon took long enough to reply that it was obvious he was thinking about how to make it happen. Lando almost felt bad for putting it out there. Jon really would do anything for him, within reason. Sometimes even a bit beyond reason.
"Might be difficult," Jon said. "But I can try to set something up."
Lando bumped their shoulders together. "It's fine," he said. "There'll be A/C, anyway."
~*~
The A/C in question seemed to be fighting a losing battle against the climbing humidity outside. Lando stripped off his shirt before the hotel door was even closed and walked over to stand in front of the fan. Behind him, he heard the fridge door open, the sink run. Two feet from the fan and it barely felt like it was doing anything.
"Hey," Jon said. He pressed a cool glass to the space between Lando's shoulderblades.
Lando flinched, but relaxed into the contact. "That feels nice," he said. Jon touched the glass to the back of Lando's neck, then to his cheek, then handed it to him to drink.
"Alright," Jon said, taking the glass back when Lando had finished. "Need anything before I go?"
"Wanna stay a bit?" Lando asked. He could feel Jon's body heat from inches away, sweltering. It was a recent development, not yet routine, but Jon hadn't turned him down so far.
"Bit warm for a cuddle," Jon said, with careful lightness.
"Yeah," Lando acknowledged. "Don't have to touch, like." He shrugged, unsure what he was even asking for. "It's alright." His cheeks heated up. Jon didn't want to stay, simple as. Lando pasted on a smile before he turned around. "I should probably get to bed."
Jon chewed on the corner of his bottom lip as his inscrutable gaze drifted down Lando's chest. "I wish I knew what you were thinking," Lando wanted to say, but didn't. He probably didn't actually want to know what Jon was thinking, because Jon was probably thinking something along the lines of, "Lando's abs look so defined. He's definitely dehydrated. More electrolyte drink before the session tomorrow." He probably wasn't thinking about the way it felt when his stomach pressed up against Lando's back, and the way their breathing fell into sync, and the way it had turned into Landoās second-favorite thing to do on a race weekend other than win.
āI can stay a while,ā Jon said. āBut if you try to cuddle me in this heat, your training sessions next week are going to be miserable.ā
āYou donāt have to,ā Lando said, because it hadnāt been an order, had hardly been a request. It was just something he wanted.Ā
Jon quirked an eyebrow. āIām aware,ā he said. āBed or couch?āĀ
āBed,ā Lando said, feeling like nothing so much as a puppy whoād just heard the word park. He toed off his socks and shoes and shimmied out of his cargos. He debated shucking the briefs as well, it wasnāt anything Jon hadnāt already seen, but left them on. He was already pressing his luck.Ā
When Jon turned to face him, naked except for his briefs and his glasses, Landoās heart made a solid attempt to climb out of his throat. He hoped it didnāt show on his face, the almost nauseating brew of possessiveness and arousal and something altogether unnameable. But god, Jon was so sexy. His strong thighs were covered in dark hair that grew thicker until it disappeared enticingly into his briefs, then trailed up over his soft belly and dissipated across his chest. It was darker from sweat, clung damp to his pecs and inner thighs. Lando wanted to taste it, to nuzzle in against Jonās chest, drag his fingers through the dark space between Jonās legs. Not tonight, Lando chided himself, but someday.
Jon smiled as he crawled onto the bed, well opposite of Lando, and sprawled out in an imitation of Landoās starfished position. The comforter was cool under them for now, but soon back sweat and body heat would turn it into another trap. Lando would end up sleeping nude on top of the covers at the rate things were going.Ā
āThis alright?ā Jon asked, turning his head so he could look at Lando.Ā
Lando gave him his most hopeful eyes and slid his hand palm-up across the space between them.Ā
Jon chuckled, reached out and put his hand in Landoās, tangling their fingers. āBetter?ā he asked.Ā
āYeah,ā Lando said. He squeezed Jonās hand. āPerfect.āĀ
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Finally, then, Oscar looks up at him. Thereās guilt scribbled on his face with bright red crayon, and he bites down on his lip, leaving a small tear there to match.
āI wanted to tell you, ok?ā His voice is strained. Slurred. With the sadness scrawled over it in patchy blue. āMore than anything, I wanted to tell you. I justā you neverāā
āI never what, Oscar?ā he spits the words out, now.
They sit between them like broken toys, sharp and angular and ready to be stepped on. Oscarās jaw is set, and Lando can see the anger brewing in him now, pent up and ready to burst.
Heās about to open his mouth to speak, when they hear a window slide open.
āHey!ā
Itās a sobering sound. One theyād only ever heard once, but had been sharp enough to imprint itself into their minds for life.
15. Did you read any books that were nominated for or won awards this year (Booker, Women's Prize, National Book Award, Pulitzer, Hugo, etc.)? What did you think of them? - I started "Disgrace," by J.M. Coetzee when I was in my South Africa phase this summer. It won the Booker prize in 1999. My DNF had nothing at all to do with the book and everything to do with the way my brain turned off and stopped functioning for a while there, at some point I'll probably pick it back up (along with Martin Meredith's "Diamonds, Gold, and War: The British, the Boers, and the Making of South Africa" which was another casualty of Brain Bad).
16. What is the most over-hyped book you read this year? - That would require any of the books I read to be hyped, lmao. I guess maybe "Strange Houses," which I bought from the most amazing little bookstore in Ft. Lauderdale and read, in its entirety, between taking my seat on the plane and when they turned off the seatbelt sign. I guess the author does YouTube puzzles? Maybe it's a format thing, maybe it's just a pretty mid book, but I did not enjoy it.
20. Do you prefer writing AUs or canon fics?
I definitely prefer writing canon fics! If I write an AU, it's almost always an AU that's still in a canon setting, but with some element changed, like for F1 I am writing a vampire AU, but they'll still all be racing drivers and other than the vampirism not much has changed.
I don't mind AUs, but they're just not my favourite way to tell a story. What I find most compelling about the "characters" in F1 is their dedication (or, let's be real, obsession) for racing. Taking that away would remove so much of what I love about them, so I don't want to.
25. Whatās your favorite part of the writing process (worldbuilding, brainstorming/outlining, writing, editing, etc)?
Answered here ^_^
31. Do you use a beta reader/editor?
Usually, yeah! I find it really helpful to get feedback on my writing, especially while I'm still working on the story. I often don't know if things are confusing or if concepts hit the way I want them to, and having someone to ask is a huge relief for my anxiety in that regard.
I posted my first five or so F1 fics without having ANYONE read them first, because I didn't know anyone in the fandom, and that was definitely nerve-wracking :'D
Nowadays I usually have some eyes on at least the first half of my drafts, but sometimes I get impatient and post the completed fic on AO3 before anyone has been able to look at the second half, especially if my trusty betas are all asleep due to timezones </3
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