#voidskull.post

Oh my fucking god did they ban @abnormal-girl again. Fuck me, I hope this doesn't sour her morning. I'll check in with her when she wakes up.

WEEKS OF STRUGGLING TO COMMUNICATE GUESS WHO IS COMING BACK AGAIN. the VOICES IN HER HEAD. TELL HER TO ROT AND ROT AND DO THE THINGS THAT MAKE HER ROT.its a good thing im too much of a coward to not do anything bad, at least i stopped myself this time.

Stimulants that make you forget who you are and what you're doing for a bit while they kick in so you're suddenly watching from the backseat.

Girl who is lost and plagued with headaches and disorientation does not know what she enjoys so she simply pretends to be who she always was. Drifting from one performance to the next her steps are not hers, her words are not hers, her face isn't hers.

There's people who want to help me which means I have people I'm actually going to take advantage of by burdening them with things I am incable of truly feeling and I need to keep everything to myself.

Fuck it whatever ripping off the bandage a bit by being open to strangers on the internet. Got diagnosed with DID, so I'm plural or a system I guess, I don't know specifics. I don't even have fucking names for whatever the things are in my head. Don't know what to do about it or whatever. Going to pin this until I delete this post specifically because I'm finding this whole post to be fucking pathetic, likely within 24 hours. If I don't, whatever I'm just spiraling about confirming something I already feared.

The realisation that reading something, then suddenly getting a headache after and not remembering much past the title probably should've been a sign.

Guess who just got diagnosed apparently <- this girlllllllll