Lofty: Wanderer
Ain experiences different situations and circumstances while traveling with Elsword and the El Search Party and meets many people in Elrios. Ain feels "anxiety" because of the El that's becoming further away from them due to unexpected events.This unfamiliar feeling starts to awaken the trace left in him from the rift of the Time and Space.
Ain feels a great demonic aura from the [Dark Forest] he had to visit by Hoffman’s request, and his inner anxiety turns into negative emotions such as fear and anger. These start to spread outside of him as well. Ain falls into a state of panic from the fear looming over him but regains his consciousness thanks to El Search Party’s calling. He tries to look for a way to calm the chaos, fearing that he might not be able to fulfill his mission in this state.
He even gets help from the humans and tried a Nasod mechanism that uses El as its power source, but it could not gauge the chaos that had grown uncontrollably, which only continues to grow.
When Ain’s anxiety reaches its peak, he asks for an answer from the Goddess, but he does not hear any reply. Ain feels even greater despair from not being able to reach the Goddess, and the seed of chaos inside manifests. When he is enveloped by the chaos, the power of creation that God had given him becomes corrupted; the body that was given to him to fulfill the mission begins to crumble and shatter.
Ain starts to wander aimlessly within the terrible nightmare that haunts him. He continues to question the mission and the purpose of his existence that are becoming more meaningless.
Apostasia
The more Ain uses the corrupted power of the God, the more his body shatters. The trace of Henir that starts to appear spreads throughout his body, but for the sake of his mission, Ain endures the pain and moves forward.
When Ain arrives at [Nasod Foundry] with the El Search Party, he sees how ‘Nasod’, a creation of mankind, is manufactured numerously then later discarded once its purpose is fulfilled.
From watching the Nasods, he reflects on himself - a being created for the mission and fated to disappear after its completion - and grows skeptical of his existence. Fear and despair for the future begin to fill his mind.
Again, to ask for an answer from the Goddess, Ain heads to Feita, but the terrible demonic aura that shrouds the entire region and the numerous demons only help develop the chaos within Ain.
Even then, believing that reaching the Goddess will cleanse him of everything, Ain perseveres with only that in his mind. He ends up discovering the <Dark El>, a jewel that the demons worship.
After seeing how the El, which he believed is a perfect creation that only the Goddess can interfere with, could be corrupted by the demons, Ain’s faith in the Goddess that has sustained him thus far, shatters and he is consumed by the fully grown seed of chaos.
Within it, Ain faces the core of the chaos again, but he, enveloped in chaos, does not feel that it is unstable like how he felt it was last time. At the end of the disordered chaos, Ain realizes that the creation of everything - the beginning and the end - everything is bound to return to nothing.
The mission to save the things that are bound to disappear, and even himself, who is created for that mission, have no meaning.
When Ain sorts out his chaotic emotions, he abandons the Goddess and his mission, replacing them by fully accepting the chaos of Henir that has been eating away at him all this time.
In the center of the storm of chaos, Ain becomes the absolute ruler of the Void who returns everything to its perfect state: nothing.
