[[ do 'em all since I can't decide which one I should send you and which one not ]]
⤠How long have you been RPing?
Fuck, I was like 8 when I started on the Neopets RP boards? I remember the first one too, it was some stupid wolf rp so I made a ridiculous OC with highly unlikely hair color and some fucking wings, why not, and then it ended like 15 minutes later and I was hooked.
'Course, most of my roleplaying career until the last six months, I was total shit, but y'know. We're not born 20.
ā„ How long have you been RPing this character?
Oh jeez, since like, early June? I opened this blog near the tail end of my time on animositatis, right around when the KLK fandom was experiencing its bajillionth huge upheaval of drama, and I was just done man. But yeah, June, so thatāsā¦3 months. Wow. Cool :3
Of course, Light as an actual characterās been a fascination of mine since 2010 when I first played FFXIII. Iāve always been drawn to the more complicated characters and she offered that in spades, but it wasnāt until very recently when I felt I acquired the maturity and ability to do her justice.
ģ Who was your first muse?
Jesus fucking Christ, I donāt even⦠I mean, probably my sort of like water elemental ish OC Kayla? xD And you can totally see all the tropes I like to use nowadays with my characters back then. She was like this angry, loudmouthed, ridiculous bitch of a character, though she lacked the depth that would make her a good OC nowadays.
I was like 9 or 10 at the time, snorts. Had this little RP group, one of my buddies played the lead guy from Chrono Trigger, like four other people. Back when AIM chats were a cool thing. God, Iām so old, its awesome
ā What drew you to this muse?
Her strength. A lot of things can be different about my muses but Iāve never had any real desire or interest in playing someone whoĀ wasnāt strong. Her motivations, especially, drew me to her; I was fresh from FF12, FFX-2, and FFX, and let me tell ya, I fuckinā hated the romantic subplots (especially in the later two) with a passion. It was just tiring. Then here she comes, trying to do nothing except save her sister and keep shit together - like a real human being.
ā® Is there anything you donāt like about playing this muse?
How difficult it is to find certain expressions. I donāt like using fanart for icons very much, but whenever I have her doing something you donāt see much of in canon - smiling, blushing, whatever - I gotta turn to fan art. Womanās got the face of a stone statue. An angry one like those samurai in peopleās tombs in Japan.
ā What is the easiest aspect of playing this muse?
The irritation. As a kid, I was likeā¦pretty angry, and let me tell ya, it took a whole lot of weed to get from that angry kid to the chilltastic, super awesome person I am today. That isnāt ācause that part of me is gone, really, Iāve just relentlessly pushed myself to stop giving a shit about things that donāt matter. The instinct is still there though.Ā
Also I really liked hitting peopleā¦so thatās easy as well snorts.
ā What is the most challenging aspect of playing this muse?
When I have to make her be mean to nice characters. It hurts! People are just trying to be nice to her and she just wants to be left alone and sometimes sheās in a bad mood and then I hurt the sweet babies and I feel like a butt.
But it comes with the package. My muse aināt cuddly. Hell, on a good day, sheās aloof; on a bad day, murderous.
Was interesting to see her be courteous to people in LR though; for Serah, it seems sheāll give up just about anything, up to and including the fact sheās basically a huge buttface.
⢠How many active muses do you have?
Active, two; Ryuuko (whoās gonna be changing urls back to the old one soon), and ācourse this one. I also have the Sazh man, but my relentless laziness when it comes to the subject of making icons has him laying low. I need to really pick it the fuck up with him but Iām so busy grr
ā Who is a muse you would want to play?
I sort of wanted like an AU Dark!Elsa but then I thought about it and nah. I dunno. I like Michonne from The Walking Dead, I like Satsuki from KLK (and could probably do a decent job of it if I didnāt turn her into asian Lightning), and I definitely have considered Asami from LOK in a hardcore way (Iām a fucking engineer for fucks sake, how could I not) but none of them have drawn me the way Ryuuko and Lightning did?
⤠What do you have in common with your muse?
As Iāve said before, that inclination to irritation and the loner aspect of her personality. Iām pretty balanced between my extroversion and introversion - I like going out with friends and drinking and partying and all that shit, but I definitely feel the need to back away, regroup, be myself, and recharge once allās over and done with.
Only difference is, I can pretend Iām a people person even if its a bunch of people I donāt know; she canāt xD.Ā
ā What are the biggest differences between you and your muse?
Sheās much more of a leader than I am. Iām not much for it. I can delegate and stand up for myself and all that crap, Iād just rather not ever bother with it. In a group situation, Iāll contribute readily, but thatās it. Part of a whole, not the head of it.
Oddly enough, not scared of public speaking.
ā Do you and your muse get along?
Gosh, I donāt know haha. I have a veryā¦irreverent sense of humor (dead baby jokes, rape jokes, race jokes, name something offensive, i have a joke about it), and I donāt really like censoring myself (as you can imagine, Tumblr is occasionally an uncomfortable place for me), so I think all that stuff would more likely than not get me punched by her.
I dunno, once the Pavlovian response to stress was set, weād probably get along better ācause Iād be too scared to talk to her.
ā² Of the two of you, who is more mature, you or your muse?
Sheās more mature when it comes to life experiences and accomplishments and things like that. Sheās been raising a kid on her own since, what, early-mid teens? Iāve been doing fuck all except studying. Sheās got a house, I have a fucking bicycle, yāknow?Ā
Emotionally, though, I take the cake and easy. Iām super chill, really difficult to faze, slow to anger, friendly, and I like seeing people smile. I donāt have a huge circle of friends because as an INTP we donāt really do that, but the ones I do have are close, and I have lots of acquaintances.
āŖ Are you comfortable playing your muse?
Not as comfortable as Ryuuko, who is basically me if I was Japanese and a lot more fucked up than I am. Iām very warm and open and I like to joke around and make people smile and sheās veryā¦not that. Sometimes I feel like I overcompensate for the difference, but it seems to level out somewhat.
I still donāt feel comfortable with her dialogue though. As opposed to Ryuuko, whose dialogue I live and fuckinā breathe.
ā Is it easier to write angst, fluff, or crack with your muse?
Lightās super angst girl, like. Honestly I think weāve sort of tried to do fluff but weāre such ridiculous people that weāve never managed it. I guess I could do fluff with her if there was a Serah around, or something really cute happened with her and Fang, but sheās just a depressed gay baby.
Crack though, omg, thatās just easy for me to write period. Iām stupid and ridiculous.
ā Is it easier for you to write as canon characters or OCs?
Iāve had three bajillion OCās in my time, but they were always really closely based on a personality I was familiar with, so really at my core Iām good with canon characters. My strength isnāt really in innovation so much as it is in imitation and improvisation based on that. Seriously, if I were to make an OC, they would be uncomfortably similar to Lightning and Ryuuko, and it would just be gay and terrible.