#vesperabout

Catastrophic Psychic Bleed:

-Triggers: Extreme emotional distress, sensory overload, desperation, rage, panic.

-Physical signs (possible): Tense muscles, shaking, nosebleed, dark tears, rapid breathing, unfocused gaze.

-Environment: Ambience around feels wrong and uncomfortable, light flickering, walls and glass cracking, weird sensory stimuli around.

-Effect on others: People close to her feel what she's suffering emotionally and sensory. High-frequency feedback leaks from her and becomes unbearable to be near. Occasionally, people may feel not only her distress but also what she feels for them personally.

-Termination: Burnout, energy expenditure exceeds capacity. Collapsing and disorientation. High chance of fainting.

-Notes: Most common type due to its nature, most dangerous and harmful to others and to herself as well.

Hypoactive Psychic Bleed:

-Triggers: Extreme depressive state, apathy, grief, emptiness, resignation, numbness.

-Physical signs (possible): Slow movements and reactions, irregular breathing, cold extremities, blank stare, delayed responses, abnormally greyish, time perception slows.

-Environment: Dust smell, fine mold forming in corners or surfaces, colors desaturating, sounds dampening, echo effect, stagnant ambience.

-Effect on others: Nearby individuals feel drained, slowed, melancholic. People feel uncomfortable staying near.

-Termination: External breach, sufficient stimulus penetrates numbness threshold, something has to reach her. Temperature shock, emotional confrontation, sensory contrast, sudden physical contact. Could end up trembling and exhausted.

-Notes: This could last longer than CPB. May also generate memory gaps, dissociation, and prolonged exhaustion.

Euphoric Psychic Bleed:

-Triggers: Intense love, excitement, joy, hope, affection, attachment.

-Physical signs (possible): Increased body temperature, deeper breathing, softer eye focus and increased eye contact, softened voice, dilated pupils.

-Environment: warm light pooling, flowers blooming, soft bioluminescence, air lighter with nice scent.

-Effect on others: May feel comfort and longing. Temporary self-esteem enhancement.

-Termination: Realization or interruption. Recognising the bleed is happening, being emotionally exposed or unsafe, system cannot sustain openness, bond is interrupted. Could feel withdrawal, shame, fatigue, vulnerability.

-Notes: The rarest type. Has many risks as emotional over-bonding, misplaced attachment, vulnerability. Very exploitable variant in Hell.

Vesper also creates various kinds of potions with different effects, these can be either liquid, dust, or airy, textures vary. She had named many of them accordingly.

Broken Wings: Paralyzing. Heavy limbs, slowed movements, delayed reactions, loss of coordination, cramps, muscular tension.

Moth Dust: Somniferous. Heavy eyelids, slowed thoughts, continuous yawning, microsleeps, mental fog.

Fang Bite: Irritant. Burning eyes and skin, stinging lungs, coughing and tearing, disorientation.

Batty Flight: Confusion. Disorientation, misjudged distances, difficulty walking straight, feeling turned around.

Moon Veil: Cover. Thicker smoke that expands upwards and sideways working as a curtain.

Silent Dusk: Stabilizer. Dampen emotional intensity in a small radius. Reduces emotional escalation, lowers panic, rage and hysteria.

Lunar Salt: Grounding. Reduces dissociation, improves focus, helps stay present, stabilizes after panic.

Vesper's weapon types and visuals are based on her character as well. She has three main weapons, fitting for different situations.

Moon Dagger: Close precision. Her most personal weapon and the most used, she always carries it with her hidden in her garter. Used for fight and any daily use. Generally the first option, small, reliable, and practical.

Crescent Scythe: Medium range, wider blade. Middle point weapon. Carries more ceremonial and meaningful use, when she must "harvest" someone. Less used.

Batwing Polearm: Wide range, batwing blades, large-scale combat. She uses it mostly in very important situations, intense battles, or war, as the angelic battle. It provides reach, versatility, precision, and control of space.

Even her physical appearance has meaning. Besides aesthetics, which are always very important to me, still has depth and a reason, which is extremely important too. She has features of moth and bat, and moon motifs aswell. The very visible mothwing ears, and though is not too obvious, her tail is meant to resemble a moth antenna. Her bat features are a bit less evident but they're quite some, she has batwing design on the tip of her tail, her eyelashes, and the edge of her usual skirt, her hands resemble bat claws and her feet bat paws. Vesper has crescent moon design on her ears and skirt, and many of her belongings aswell.

Now, about the meaning of these. I'm explaining in a symbolic and archetypal way.

🦋Moth: the moth is drawn to light, not out of ignorance, but because of its warmth and soul. Represents the search and pull for meaning even in the dark, feeling things deeply, deep as darkness itself.

She feels change before it happens, and is willing to shed layers of herself to follow inner truth. She moves between comfort and passion, softly, yet with intensity, drawn to the flame of truth or love, even when it burns.

The moth embodies the in-between aswell, not harsh brilliance, not complete darkness, but candle flame, subtle, warm enough. Called by light, but born in shadow. It mirrors (our) sensitivity, solitude, perception, spirituality, dream nature, longing for the unseen, and ability to find beauty and renewal in melancholy.

🦇Bat: the bat navigates the unseen, moving in darkness using inner sensing. It doesn't rely on what's visible, it trusts feeling, sensing, intuition and awareness.

Living in caves links with the unconscious, and hanging upside down makes it see the world from a different point of view, which also links with feeling different or out of place in ordinary reality.

Besides, the bat represents Vesper's highly sensitive senses; perceiving more than others, preferring subtle environments, and risk of overstimulation. Bats also symbolise the threshold between life, death, and transformation.

🌙Moon: the moon is one of the oldest and most powerful symbols in spirituality and witchcraft, it's linked with intuition, emotion, cycles, imagination, dreams, and inner knowledge.

The moon behaves as a mirror of the soul, reflecting, unlike the sun that shines outwardly. It has a receptive energy, listens, absorbs and reflects. It teaches comfort in the unknown, illuminating the shadows softly.

The crescent moon specifically is linked with endings and spiritual renewal, wisdom of closure, introspection, and preparing for rebirth.