#verrier

I asked if he already knew that I was going to be his one day and he confirmed that he did, in some way, know. So I asked him if he ever watches other people with 'wild spirits' being broken and oppressed that he knows will not end up freeing themselves from this. He said that he does and immediately followed it up with "you do too, don't you?" He knows me too well.

I asked how he dealt with it. It's so hard to see people with so much potential being kept small and doing nothing about it. He just said "I can't control it." I ask him "but don't you wish? Don't you just wish things were different sometimes?" And Lucifer said, "no. I don't spend a lot of time wishing. I hope. And I am very patient. But I know what things I will or won't control. People's will isn't one of them. They have to choose freedom consciously."

I told him it's hard for me to accept that and asked him how I can just do nothing and 'hope' for someone to wake up and realize they have been lied to. I'm not that patient, and I also don't know who will have a change of heart in the future like he knows. How can I just sit there and do nothing??

Suddenly, I smell Verrier's candle. She shows up boldly and tells me, "that is not your job. It's not your job to try and save other bitches. You are here because you worked for it and you chose to. So stop worrying about other women who aren't free because they chose not to be. Stop wishing. It's not your place to do that. You focus on yourself."

And, yeah, she's probably right. I suppose Lucifer would've told me something similar, but Verrier got the point across just right. She was extremely upfront about it, which was probably how I needed to hear it.

REDO OF VERRIER IS HERE!! They're still the same storywise but now they have Fake Eyes to See You With :))

However, I kept getting signs that she still wanted to talk to me and today, I did that.

It's still fascinating to me every time it happens, but she gave me explicit instructions on a spell she wants me to do to help me handle the situation. I had kind of expected Lucifer to be a bit more hands-on and not just "don't blame yourself," but I guess he knew that Verrier had something in store for me.

Anyways, you guys, why do deities keep telling me to make puppets. I still have one that was supposed to be for another spell I haven't gotten to, yet. At this rate I'll have too many and no time to actually to the magick.

She was super direct and specific about what she wants me to do. No maybe's, just instructions. I love her no-bullshit attitude. She had a harsh tone with me today but it still felt oddly caring. It's like that a lot with her. She won't let any sulking and pouting slide. She said to me, "you had time to sulk. You have time to build a safety plan. But you won't need it if you're fast enough and take back control over the situation."

Because, you know, maybe that's the point of it. Maybe that is how polytheism works, always has worked. You don't call upon a "person", you call upon an energy because you know it exists and it can help you. It's part of the universe, part of nature, as are you.

And you get to develop a relationship with this energy in your own, personal way. It's like becoming friends with the wind, or a tree, or a shooting star for a short moment.