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Thirteen Steps To Understanding Something You Can’t by veracious

Day 1 of my #Thanksvember series, a daily fic rec challenge created by @anidealiveson​ to show our appreciation for all fic writers out there.

I've had to re-upload a few of these due to them not showing up in the tags (which defeats the purposes of these recs entirely), so we're going back to my rec for Day 1.

Title: Thirteen Steps To Understanding Something You Can’t

Author: veracious

Fandom: Fight Club

Relationship: Marla Singer/Tyler Durden

Rating: Teen and Up Audiences

Length: Standalone

Word count: 1,456

Warnings: none provided by the author, though it contains canon-typical dark themes such as drug abuse/drug addiction, mentions of eating disorders, use of pejorative language, self-destructive behaviour, etc.

Summary:

Where we learn something and more about Marla Singer. (Marla/Tyler/Narrator, a mix of book & film canon.)

As some of you may know, and some of you may not know... I left a lot behind coming to Colorado. 

I'm not much of a talker. 

I have never been. 

Ever since a child, I have been seen but unheard for the most part. 

I guess video and photography are a type of way I have found with which I can externalize my thoughts. 

The video I uploaded is full of shaky footage. 

To some, it may look like nonsense... though I wanted it that way. 

I wanted to capture the chaos. 

The shaky video symbolized a state of delirium with vibes of solidarity. 

Much of you I am sure do not care about the descriptives when it comes to video logs. 

This descriptive is a bit of an insight of what it feels like to be me right now. 

I'm not entirely sure who I am. 

I thought I knew and that world crumbled beneath my feet in a matter of seconds a few weeks ago. 

I have become skeptical of myself and unfortunately others. 

A lot of the time I feel as though I am not enough. 

Conditioned by my external influences and circumstances I suppose you could say. 

All in all, I wanted to capture a small essence of what I am experiencing right now. 

Confusion. 

Wavering confidence. 

Heartbreak beyond belief. 

Short bursts of anger and even shorter moments of happiness.......... 

Yet with all of that said, I know I am meant for greatness. 

I have not seen my best days.

I'm a simple guy forced complicated for the time being. 

They say time heals all wounds and I believe that to be true. 

Time and good company is always the perfect remedy for any ailment. 

The vibe attracts your tribe as they say. 

Though I am changed for the long haul. 

I feel different. 

I think different. 

I trust differently. 

I laugh different. 

I will tell you though, I am most definitely not just going through the motions anymore. 

Life is very raw and very real right now for me.... so please stay stoked guys.

Please. 

Don't let your fire die out no matter what. 

I'm surprised I still have one. 

I guess my pilot light never died out after all. 

VERACIOUS CHAPTER FIVE IS OUT!!

it’s the longest one yet and we have a lot of… gay stuff happening

Introducing a fair lady and a certain kitten’s shenanigans…

With a delay, but content that should make up for that occurrence… hihihi… <3