Venting about my ex (cw: mentions of system hopping, implied abuse/neglect, implied cheating)
If you ever really loved me you wouldnât have needed any of them. But you didnât, did you. You even replaced me with someone else instead of even asking to talk to me. It was just too much for you.
You canât have one or two partners, no, you need five fucking partners and youâre always adding more. Just shows how little you care about the partners you already have. I was always an accessory to you. You didnât care about me as a person you only cared that I was Rantarou.
Why couldnât you ask to talk to me? Why couldnât you tell me you loved me yourself? Why did you have to pretend like I could magically make my way over to your headspace?
Why couldnât you just love me and Kazuichi - why did it have to be me, and Kazuichi, and anyone else you could possibly get your hands on? Why did you have to hurt us in the way that you did? Why couldnât you be fucking faithful???
Why, why, why, why, why. All these questions arenât going to magically bring you back or undo the hurt you did me. Not to mention the various ways youâve hurt others in our system. Fuck you for fucking with us in the way that you did.
Youâre the worst. I wish that you werenât. But I also hope you donât remember me fondly. If youâre going to hate Kazuichi, hate me too.
