#vent(s)

One day I'll finish this but not at 2am. And probably not this month. I am currently drawing on my phone and it's uh, different and difficult but enjoyable and interesting? And no one reads this shit anyway so. I will post update for myself, I guess.

My poor tablet caught AI and I have yet to rip it fully out so no nice giant screen with a nice comfy stylus but at least I can still watch stuff on it for now.

Everyone there was preparing me for her not surviving, saying that she's 20 and it was a delicate situation and had a good life and oh my god, truly awful. Thank fuck she's a tough old lady because she's my baby. And now she's coming home in a few hours after a night in the cat icu. ;-; <3

Don't give kitty gatorade to cats with bad kidneys even if your regular vet perscribes it! She basically had too much potassium that it had crossed the blood-brain barrier and her kidneys just couldn't filter it out before it got critical and effected her neurologically. I feel so guilty, blergh.

I hope she has a few more years and then she can have a nice steak before being gently put down at home in my arms.

(My baby on her 20th birthday, her tail tip is going grey. :'3)

... i should probably get a therapist, putting all my mental health eggs in one cat shaped basket is Not A Good Idea. -_-

Edit - she's home!

So my doctor has to erase that every single time she goes to make me a new referral now. 🥲

Assigned uneditably straight by the medical system, truly a terrible fate.

migraines are awful :( took two serious painkillers and wow they do nothing next to the temple icepicks and brainstem buzzsaw nice nice oh my god why doesn't screens have a darker mode than dimmest :( I can't read my little gay fanfics for comfort :(