I know I gripe a lot in this thing, but I want it known that there are some good things, too. As shit as things are, we still got each other right? We got booze, we got allies, we got each other…and that’s worth something innit? Got the travelin’ crew, got the other wardens…even if it’s only two. Alistair n Ruiha. My best mates, if I gotta say. I think Al would say the same…dunno bout Ru though. She’s always got a distance to her. There’s always somethin’ she’s not sayin. Which I get, it’s fine. I know the feeling…nobody cares for so long that you stop givin a shit yourself, yeah? I know the place she come from…all slums of our own. But seein’ it first hand when we went to Orzammar…it’s different. Seeing the people she done lived with, seeing her family and the caste bullshit system she’d lived under, beneath all that rock…it leaves a mark all its own. A mark significantly her own, that even an alienage elf can’t understand. I get the brand on her face better now, though. Ain’t some scar of rite, like us. It’s a brand of shame, to let people know just where ya belong. A brand fuckin’ babes where, born into situations they can’t even protest. It’s horseshit, and I know some part of her knows that, but here on the surface she’s as good as anyone else. The way she was raised, it don’t mean shit now. Ruiha is her own person, without title, without past, without none’a that weight. It’s who we all are, y’know? Wardens. We’re brothers and sisters and that’s it. Simple. Cut n’ dry. What we bring to the table, and that’s a lot for her end. Better than me, that’s for sure. I just wish she could see it….She could do so much if she just let herself. I sorta….Y’know, I wish I could bring myself to tell her how much I give a shit. I wish she knew how loved she was…at least before we all go. Maybe one of us will make it out of this…and if its her, she needs to know her own worth. Which is a hell of a lot more than some fuckers give her credit for. She could lead us all n’ I would follow….Fuck. Maybe she doesn’t want to stick around for that shit, though. I don’t know….I sure as hell wouldn’t, come to think of it….I guess we should all just be glad to have each other, in this moment. I’ll go stoke the fire and see if they’re awake. They’re the only family I have…might as well enjoy it while it lasts. Goodnight.