i got no self control | @vastcause
the woman does not answer at first ------ but, instead, silently removes her glasses && closes the file she has been reading, in deep thought. garcetti’s refusal to accept her resignation && the following offer of becoming his vice president certainly caught her by surprise, enough to make her mull over her choices ( however, if elaine is honest, part of her wants nothing but to take collier out of the game ).
‘ ‘ no. ’ ’ comes the reply in a quiet fashion as she doesn’t raise her gaze to look at her companion; she is not entirely sure why she feels compelled to be so honest with the young reporter. even though the two of them had been, more often than not, on opposite sides ( although one could argue susan had been the most vocal of the two ) through the years ------ now that she has started to get to know the woman behind the words, now that elaine saw susan as a person && not just an annoying reporter who’s looking for a story to sell, it feels natural to share a piece of her mind with her. ‘ ‘ it isn’t. ’ ’
‘ ‘ but sometimes ------ sometimes, we can’t get what we want, not in the way we want them. my personal desires && aspirations should not come before the nation’s. ’ ’ the older woman shrugs slightly, rising her gaze to spare a lingering look at the reporter before shaking her head, absent minded. her mind was already made, he needed her ------ && she would be damned if she refused to stand by his side, even if it pained her. garcetti is, after all, one of the few men elaine still respects. ‘ ‘ i want to make a difference, to change things ------ the people need someone who’ll be out there, giving voice to their needs. i can be that someone; i am that someone && i’ll be there for them, even if it’s not in the way i first planned. ’ ’
