#varieament

I don’t know if I’m going crazy or if anyone else here can see but... I think I spotted ANOTHER me... is it really me? Or some sort of trick...? Whatever it is... I fear it and want nothing to do with it...

My apologies for the long silence... it’s just that... I reset the world again... in some vain attempt to clean the world of my paradox. Needless to say, it sort of worked. But now there’s someone new... someone I don’t recognize from here... or any AU to be honest... I’m going to be keeping my distance for now...

Well... the day of my human birth passed a couple days ago... did nothing to celebrate... told no one so it couldn’t be celebrated... kind of a lonely life for me... just wishing it could all stop... yet it’s getting worse... The resets... all the resets I’ve done... they’re starting to catch up with me... and... I can’t help but feel a storm is brewing... a storm coming for me... coming for everyone... with no eye in it... no safety... Aside from all the sad talk, I... I think I’ve found my theme... I probably shouldn’t do this but this might be the only exception I’ll make for my other AU exploration paradoxes. Here.

Now, little to none of you might be wondering about Cruxel. Well, I haven’t seen him and it’s a tad bit disconcerting. But I feel like I should look into this... gah... I will. A small way to make up for my grand wealth of sins... but it’ll all be at the cost of more and more black ink... until it’s overwhelming to the point where I just have to do something vile. Speaking of it, I’ve got a small theory rattling in my brain. I know I have one-and-a-half souls in me, that’s been stated enough as is. Though the half soul is still torn at the seems, perhaps it’s generating black ink because it’s still fighting, still raging against fate, all to seek the missing piece that’s probably dead or long gone under the earth. That’s just my theory of my generation of black ink. I might, begrudgingly, ask Tempastore for help... I’ve killed him so much and he knows it in his soul... I wouldn’t blame him if he won’t help me... 

Just another small one... I find it interesting how once a night we’re greeted with something from an anon... which is absolutely better than nothing... keeps me from getting bored before I send it along the grape-vine...

Varieament- Ehh...? King of Shadows...? Clockwork...? What is this...?

That was the transcript. It was short but I did what I could decipher the mess. What intrigues me is the mention of Chireatuuranu, which, if you don’t know my homeland’s language, means Creator. It’s said in the formal sense, as it should be. But, I don’t understand why it was mentioned. The Creator’s name is never mentioned unless in prayer by the cultists. Afterall, the Creator made the deities and just left them to govern us, supposedly. Think of it as a god. No one saw him. We just believed he existed and that he created the powerful deities that actually do invade our culture. Though, as they are limited, we can’t see them everywhere. And there was a rumor... nevermind... I’m getting WAY off-track. Mention of Creator, possible for protection or whatever. But an Overlord? There IS no Overlord in my homeland. There’s not even a king or queen or whatever that makes the laws of the land. We just had the two cultist leaders who kind of governed the place. How else would I be exiled unless there was someone of power? But still, that’s two people. Not a singular Overlord the voice mentions. It’s very odd. Perhaps it’s from some alternate universe. That’s the most likely case... meaning I shouldn’t look into it so much. Just the same amount of attention I do for the others like Underfell and Underswap...

I’ve finished deciphering... but for some reason this beat-up hunk of junk says the recording is too corrupted to be uploaded... I swear I’ll find a way... but that’ll have to wait until I figure out the source of the problem... Sorry this one is so short but I don’t have much to report on...