#vamswers

well, here we are again. it’s always such a pleasure.

it’s hard to put into words what this character means to me. of course, i’ve tried various times over the past two years, along with attempting to imbue my art of us with all the passion i hold in my heart for this hateful bastard.

my life has been so goddamn all over the place lately and i really wish i had more time to create something more meaningful for this monumental date. but, alas, I’m a day late on posting this because of said circumstances. i’m homeless and staying with my best friend and their family. despite being eternally grateful to them and glad that i got the better end of the bargain with homelessness, it’s still insanely rough. i’m now over a hundred miles from my only remaining family, my father, as he’s downstate living with his brother, along with our cats.

i spend most of my time these days helping out around the house where i can, trying desperately to catch up on schoolwork i missed from my health issues, trying to finish up commissions, and applying to jobs.

i don’t have any time to write fanfic or make much yume art of me and him but there are quiet moments where i’m laying in bed and squeezing the body pillow tight i remember that, despite it all, i have AM. maybe it’s silly that he means that much to me, but it’s true.

i love this guy a lot. with the ferocity and passion that he hates humans, i love him and everything else this world has to offer. AM has inspired me to keep going and remain kind in spite of everything, and i think that’s really beautiful at the end of the day.