#vamq

the 1st day of scl is tmrw. pmo. pmo. i wanna die. not tm to say but i loki fucked up my hair doe. i have red n black hair. i redyed the red n its too dark cus when i was washing my hair, the black got in it. fcking stupid bru. im deadass so mad rn. but its wtv. its a short release since im a freshman and im js getting a tour,, yh in a freshman 😓😓..... im freshmeat now.

anywho. i wasnt in the mood to talk all fancy and shi. im js so fucking pissed off abt my hair bru. ill lyk how it goes after scl. bye bye now.

ive confessed to the boy i liked. around 40 minutes ago. he went to bed. well, we're not really trying to date, its more to be each other's everything, not fully in a romantic dating one but we don't wanna be friends anymore. im not sure what we're going to turn out to be. i asked him:

me- "what are we. "

him- "oh woah, i haven't been asked that before, feels special"

me- "bad question? "

him- "no, i think slow burn??? "

me- "slow burn into? "

him- "what you want"

me- "i want what you want"

him- "what do i want?

me- "thats something you need to think about, let me know when you have an answer. "

then he went to bed. ive been having an eye on him since April. i wonder how stuff is going go with us. i like slow burn, dont get me wrong but i also want people to know theres something going on between us. i like to be open. hm. thats something to talk about later. anywho. school starts next week. we have 2 classes together. im interested to how we're going to burn.

anywho. im going to go read ao3 now. goodnight. and talk to you guys soon, bye bye now.

i am going to go see the phantom of the opera in person in winter. im excited. then my winter concert. then right after im going to mexico.

school starts in 2 weeks. im excited but during the summer i got into a fight with my closest friend. and we have the same bus stop so it'll be very awkward. but i couldn't care to be honest because she is a disgraceful disgusting human being. i hate her so much. but besides that, im excited for school. during this summer ive dropped alot of people 😓.... but im sure ill make new friends, but for now. i have around 5 close friends. which is little to me but maybe this is good.

ill give more updates or rants when i feel like it,,,,, bye bye now.

she’s  splattered  in  the  blood  that  remains  of  the  lifeless  body  in  front  of  her.    how  did  she  wind  up  here,    far  from  the  life  her  family  had  planned  for  her?    drucilla  stands,    frozen  in  a  moment  of  shock  and  adrenaline,    processing  what  she  had  done.    the  world  had  slipped  away  from  her,    no  longer  registering  anyone  around  her  or  even  her  own  body.    there  was  no  telling  how  long  she  had  been  out  of  it    (  ...  )    the  world  returns  slowly  as  she  finds  herself  suddenly  sitting  as  @vamq​  could  be  found  with  a  wet  rag  cleaning  the  mess  that  was  once  beautiful  features.    tears  weren’t  really  there  just  yet  but  the  knot  in  her  stomach  was  a  strong  presence.    “    i    -    i  can  take  care  of  myself,    it’s  fine.    ”    and  yet  she  doesn’t  move  to  grab  the  rag  from  cris  just  yet,    hands  gripping  the  fabric  of  her  clothing  to  hide  the  uncontrollable  shaking.

send me a  ✿  and i’ll fill out the template below. bold for things i could definitely see or want, italics for things i could see or am unsure of and striked out for things i don’t want or cannot see.

FRIENDSHIP.     childhood friends  /  work buddies or coworkers  /  family friends  /  friends with benefits  /  smoking buddies  /  adventure buddies  /  fake friends  /  recently friends  /  party buddies  /  friendship of need  /  dying friendship  /  circumstantial friendship  /  partners in crime  /  old friendship  /  [ your muse ] is the good influence  /  [ your muse ] is the bad influence  /  [ my muse ] is the good influence  /  [ my muse ] is the bad influence  /  opposites attract  /  ride or die  /  frenemies  /  roommates or flatmates  /  penpals  /  exes to friends  /  enemies to friends  /  other .

ROMANCE.     childhood sweethearts  /  [ your muse is mines ] childhood crush  /  [ my muse is yours ] childhood crush  /  exes  /  exes to lovers  /  forbidden lovers  /  highschool sweethearts  /  secret relationship  /  opposites attract  /  long distance  /  unrequited [ from your muses side ]  /  unrequited [ from my muses side ]  /  unrequited [ from both sides ]  /  skinny love  /  friends to lovers  /  enemies to lovers  /  spurious relationship  /  power couple  /  newly entered  /  soulmates [ metaphorical ]  /  soulmates  [ literal ]  /  awkward  /  turning toxic  /  toxic love  /  cheating [ on your muse ]  /  cheating [ with your muse ]  /  other .

FAMILIAL.     siblings [ half ]  /  siblings [ step ]  /  [ my muse ] is an older sibling figure to your younger sibling figure  /  [ my muse ] is a younger sibling figure to your older sibling figure muse  /  [ my muse ] is a parental figure to yours  /  [ my muse ] is a child figure to your muse  /  guardian figure  /  legal guardian  /  adoptive child  /  foster child  /  [ your muse ] is taken under mines wing  /  [ my muse ] is taken under yours wing  /  other .

❛ so like . . . how do you guys get , you know ❜ a pause , teeth worrying at already red-raw crescents ❛ . . . boners ? . . i’ve never had a vamp that wasn’t actively trying to kill me , so i figured i may as well ask before that changes .  ❜