Uggggh, the deja vu spell/ siezure things are back. They went away for 2 or 3 months, but now they're back with a vengeance. Longer, scarier, more intense. It's like I can feel the presence of people or some kind of being that's not there, but I don't get a mental image of them. Lots of buildings. I'm completely useless today. Keep falling asleep. I just want my friendly skeleton lady back, not these scary no-faced bitches. It's not even at the right time in my cycle! Can I never catch a break? I need to get thank you cards out for the wedding! My psychiatrist confirmed that it sounds like focal siezures, though, and told me he was proud of me and all the research I'm doing and how well I'm persevering and without any self harm too. So at least there's that. Can he be the dad I never had? It's kind of embarrassing how profoundly touched I get by even the smallest affirmations from anyone of parent age to me.
