#val&apollo

Whelp, I did it. I finally updated their character designs. Obviously I will be changing some details for this blurb since I do want to keep my account a little anonymous, but for a long while my ex kind of ruined the fetish for me. I struggled to look at these characters as (to me) they reflected the betrayal I was experiencing.

My best friend, someone I clung to in difficult times and saw as my world completely shattered my view of intimacy, and that’s a hard thing to recover from especially as a kink artist. I tried posting some things after (some little comments about my new boyfriend) but I realized it was still too painful, and when that subsided the interest to update never returned.

I did, however, continue to draw and improve my work beyond my little mpreg doodles as to a degree, pouring myself into art was helpful in attempting to find myself again after being known as “such and such’s wife” for years. I do miss them, but I know that inevitably it wasn’t a good fit. Maybe we shouldn’t have dated, or gotten engaged young, stayed friends, but unfortunately I can’t change what’s already happened.

My partner has been amazing to me, which has helped me to heal enough to even write this out. Without him, I don’t know if I would have tried to be better or seek help. That being said, I’ve done a lot to make lasting changes and grow a shiny new metal spine.

As for these two, I have redesigned them a lot. I wanted them to be their own thing, and reflect me a lot less as to almost separate their story from mine. I may continue to write the book, but it’s not in the near future for me. I’m going to try working about more of my writing before diving back in, but for now enjoy these (and any more) sketches I create.

There’s a scene at the end of the third chapter of “A Date With Science” where Apollo is looking in the mirror conflicted about discovering he’s pregnant. I really liked writing that scene, and it was easy to visualize so I went with it. I added some sketches at the bottom too because why not 😅 I’m thinking I’m going to change both their appearances again slightly (sorry) just working on making Apollo’s hair make more sense and changing Valerie’s body type and overall style.

Here’s their (slightly updated) refs. I’ve also added a lil interlude with lots of fun sketches for the other characters in my story, linked below