#utterlyinlove

The purpose I feel in being the best person I can be for this boy as his mama is the most motivating force I’ve ever experienced. #boymom #mother #baby #7weeks #utterlyinlove ❤️🌵 (at Sonoma County, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/B1PpdFfBHlXLJTW7sxqyH74bEBmcQMlaPV1X6M0/?igshid=n8ohiertyd8m

Beach vibes

HE said some shit that rubbed me the wrong way! So here is what happened. I got off of work Yesterday. I usually go to this taco spot that is open until like 3 or so on Friday and Saturday. He tells me he is gonna pick me up and take me there. I’m like cool. I miss this dude. I get to see him. Yay me! Right?! So I get in the car he takes me to the place and before I get out the car to go in we sit and talk. This is where it took a left for me. We pull and stop and he asked me where my good was. I’m like Nate? He says no the other guy you went to school with. Oh! Jamar? Probably home. That's all I said. He says oh well he told me yall fooled around. FACE drops! No cracks! I say ok... so what? This is what I don't like. Don't bring up no shit that has nothing to do with us. EXTRA OLD SHIT that obviously didn’t go anywhere because here I am still single ASF. This is where my energy becomes fucked up. When I tell you I lost my appetite and didn’t want to be around him anymore. I lost all kinds of feelings in that moment. After that he proceeds to tell me he misses me. N***A if you don't get off me. BYE!! Don't come to me with some bum ass shit and then try to switch up and say you miss me. I almost popped yo ass. He cops me mad and ask me why. I told him if he don't know then I don’t know. He asked me why am I hard on him and mean. I told him I have to be. (P.s this guy is an ex of mine lol) So yea! Now he is mad at me. Like for real! The next time we talk will be in person. So he actually picked me back up from the place. Silence all the way home. The thing is my missing him made me want to hold his hand the whole time. He knows I love him.