#utterly distraught

Have any BPD peeps ever date someone who is a sociopath, narcissist who are very manipulative? I am very naive and an Empath and I have been diagnosed with BPD. I AM STRUGGLING! I’m teetering on that tightrope everyday to wanting to fucking die cuz he causes me a lot of pain then tells me how much he loves me 20x a day after we fight and blames me most of the the tme. For instance, we all suffer from abandonment. Mine is really bad, anyway when hm and i have a fight have a fight he always threatens to pack his shit and leave me. He knows i suffer with that and knows about the suicide thing and I freak out every time, I beg, plead, cry ans shove him away from the door. How the fuck can they say they love you? It’s s wrong!! It fucks with my head. Iknow I have to leave him but I dont fucking know how without wanting to die after he leaves.

there has been a song that has been stuck in my head on and off for five years and today i discovered it was a 45 second song from cory in the house. which i found out through a video essay investigating what political party the president from that show was a part of. dc3 pls release full "thinking of you" cut.