#utopia6

Just when I thought it was over, it never left.

I was too indecisive thinking if I was really sure with what I feel. I think it's normal to feel it sometimes but  tonight, it punched me on the face and say;

YOU LOVE HIM, ALWAYS.

I know I am weird. My thoughts are always nowhere and I over think most of the time but I am sure with one thing, I choose you because I LOVE YOU.

It may look so cheesy but let it be. You tend to be so cheesy because that's part of love, the sweetest way of telling the person you love how you feel. I thought of many things tonight...most specially... the very reason why I am still into him after all these years.

Feelings are special. They can be both happy and sad. They can burst out anytime. They can deceive anyone. They can make anyone start living. They can make anyone hold on to uncertainty. But whatever your feelings will be, it will always be about one person... to that very special person in your life...to that person whom you dedicate that indecisive feelings of yours... to the person you love.

I won't regret that I hold on, that I never surrender. I know this won't be easy. We will get into many fights, we will have more misunderstanding, we will get pissed with each other a little more but that won't make me give-up.