#utah stuff

Just Living In Utah Things:

-Church steeples litter the skyline-College males that are either a self-proclaimed entrepreneur or study Exercise Science -College females that study Child Education or Psychology -When you buy something on Sunday and you get the Look-Being taught that modesty is your responsibility so that you don’t pollute the men’s minds -VidAngel Discourse -Fake smiles -“it’s only a sin if they ACT on it so really-”-Seeing people is church clothes really randomly and it’s not a big deal-BYU game days where you CANT FUDKJHG DRIVE ANYWHERE -Children everywhere-Your Facebook feed constantly full of engagements/weddings/babies-Not being able to talk about gay shit in public -Constantly Feeling Judged

I don’t mind at all!

I mean obviously they weren’t too happy about it because of how much they believe that this church is true, and that you can’t make it into heaven if you leave it after joining, but two things happened before they found out about my leaving:

1. My brother also left the church very vocally

2. My sister got a girlfriend

So, I think they were grateful that I didn’t leave as badly as my brother did (not that I blame him, of course) and they’d already had to re-examine a few things when it came to my sister. 

I never actually told them I had left, but I stopped talking about my ward and about church, and they eventually stopped asking. I received a very long email from my mom that was actually super nice and understanding. She said that she knew I wasn’t going to church and that she knew I had a lot of issues with the doctrine and the culture and that she would always love me no matter what, but she wanted to know if I’d like to take a specific institute class before I finally decided to leave the church for good. 

So, because I love my mom, I agreed and signed up for it. 

The class was all about getting into the nitty gritty of the tricky mormon doctrine and discussing the murky past, and I’m sure it would have been an okay (as okay as that can be) class, but I hated the teacher. He said offensive things that I did not like, and ended up telling my parents when I skipped a class, which I was super not okay with and ended up chewing him out over it before never showing up again. 

EEEYYYYY I SURE DO. The land of Mountains, Salty lakes, and people looking at you weird when you say you don’t wanna get married. 

SHIT UR RIGHT

I went to a Red Robin’s in Cali once and they gave us fry sauce so I said, “hey can I have some more fry sauce, please?”

and the look he gave me

so confused

and I pointed at the empty sauce cup

“You know, fry sauce?”