Oct 1, 2024
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#God- I can’t even help#I can’t comfort people#And even if I try I make things worse…#Can’t even help without going anon#Useless.#I understand if someone decided to hit me tomorrow.#I don’t care.#I deserve to be hurt.#But then you’ll just complain more and be useless again!#Then maybe I deserve to have my vocal cords ripped out. Can’t talk then.#Scramble your brain so bad you can’t type out complaints.#Fix you.#Fix my brain#So I’m not defective anymore.#So I’m normal.#So I do what I’m told.#Maybe then my friends can call me good boy because then maybe I will be and I’ll actually deserve praise and affection.#Maybe then I’ll believe it.#Because I sure as hell don’t deserve it now.#Heavy vent
