#urize

“Do something, damn it,” the former prince commands himself as he reaches his prosthetic arm up to clutch it into a fist. In the newborn light, Ravus sees that dust has managed to settle even between his metallic fingers. He throws his arm down with a curse of frustration. What was he so afraid of? Being hated? Lunafreya would be disgusted with him. No-- he stops himself. Disgusted? No. She’d understand his fear. She had always been so understanding. His baby sister, the woman who had given everything for her duties, despite her own fears, would be understanding of him hiding away from fear of his own. The thought makes Ravus’ stomach churn.

“Enough.”

Ravus doesn’t bring anything more than some gil and the Alba Leonis at his side. He sets off toward Lestallum, on foot. It takes days to get there; the trek from Tenebrae to Duscae was no short walk, but it hardly bothers him. Ravus had spent ten years alone in Fenestala Manor. To be out in the fresh air was refreshing, at the very least. Each night Ravus lies beneath the stars, sometimes sleeping, sometimes simply staring up at the night sky. He thinks to himself how just a short time ago staying out in the night like this would have been suicide for most. With the daemons seemingly gone, he could lie here at peace. Even if other people happened to have returned to these parts in the short time since the dawn had returned, they would be no issue for him.

Part way there, it crosses his mind that perhaps it would’ve been smart to change clothes. Those in Lestallum might not respond kindly to a man approaching wearing the uniform of the High Commander of the Niflheim Empire, regardless of it having fallen. It was too late to go back now, though. He’s started to see people, occasionally even cars drive by him on the road. Most, to Ravus’ surprise, pay him little mind. He’s more than content with this.

“Hey, man, uhh, you goin’ somewhere? Need a ride?” a man pulls over to him on the side of the road. Ravus stares at him blankly; it’s finally hit him how long he’s been away from people.

“You good, man?” the driver waits for an answer, “That’s a big sword. You a Glaive or somethin’?”

“...how far to Lestallum?” Ravus asks him, bypassing both questions the driver had raised.

“Oh, it’s like, probably another ten miles back,” the man looks back over his shoulder, “You want a ride there? I’m headed to Cleigne, but I can turn back quick. I probably forgot something where I was staying, anyway, now that I’m thinkin’ about it.”

“How much do you want?”

“It’s no big deal, dude, you don’t have to pay me anything.”

“Hmph.”

Ravus says nothing but gets into the passenger seat of the man’s truck. The man tries to make small talk, and Ravus does his best to comply despite his reservations. He seems awfully excited about the Alba Leonis, so Ravus does his best to satisfy his curiosities without giving too much information regarding the sword’s origins. The ride is short, much shorter than it would’ve been to walk. The driver stops just outside of the city’s walls. Ravus thanks him briefly before he drives off into Lestallum. Ravus clears his throat, running his “real” hand through his hair. It was too late for him to be having reservations now. It was time.

Onward.

1 - last beverage: Peach Snapple Tea 2 - last phone call: Miss. Charleen 3 - last text message: "Isawww” to Will after he sent me a picture 4 - last song you listened to: Kaleidoscope - Courtney Act (acoustic) 5 - last time you cried: last night

// have you ever

6 - dated someone twice: Never dated 7 - been cheated on: nah 8 - kissed someone and regretted it: nah 9 - lost someone special: yes 10 - been depressed: ahah all the time 11 - been drunk and threw up: nah

12-14 - three favorite colors: black, purple, white

// in the last year, have you

15 - made a new friend: yah 16 - fallen out of love: nah 17 - laughed until you cried: yupperdoodle 18 - met someone who changed you: mhmm yes 19 - found out who your true friends are: kinda 20 - found out someone was talking about you: uh...probably 21 - kissed anyone you follow/follows you: nah

// general

22 - how many people do you know in real life that follow you on tumblr: 3??? Maybe??? I think? 24 - do you have any pets: yes! cat 25 - do you want to change your name: actually yeah I hate my name, but I’d never go through with it 26 - what did you do for your last birthday: sat in my room on my computer 27 - what time did you wake up today: 7:00 AM 28 - what were you doing at midnight last night: Working on my Tumblr theme 29 - name something you CANNOT wait for: ALL THE NEW VIDEO GAMES COMING OUT 30 - last time you saw your mother: It’s been almost two months 31 - what is one thing you wish you could change about your life: pfft is everything an answer? Uh...I’d like to be financially stable and not an anxious, stupid freak. 32 - what are you listening to right now: Transcendence - Lindsey Stirling 33 - have you ever talked to a person named tom: hella 34 - what’s getting on your nerves right now: my family 35 - most visited website: probably tumblr 36 - blood type: I have no idea and it bothers me 37 - nickname: I have many but the first to pop in my head is Roxas 39 - relationship status: single 40 - pronouns: she/her 41 - elementary: eh 42 - high school: shit 43 - college: whoops 44 - hair color: I literally could not tell you what color my hair is. Brownish? A bit of red depending on the season? Like a light dusting of blonde in certain lights? I guess Brown  45 - long or short: getting pretty long. I need to cut it... 46 - height: 5′2″ (157 centimeters) 47 - do you have a crush on someone: nah 48 - what do you like about yourself: I’m told I have nice hair so there’s that 49 - random fact: everything i say is either sarcasm or completely serious there is no in between 50 - tattoos: nah 51 - righty or lefty: righty 52 - first surgery: n/a 53 - first piercing: ears (3 times and I still have to try again) 54 - first best friend: ......Michael Doolin and I fucking think about him all the time. Where is he? Is he enjoying life? Does he still like the Fairly Odd Parents??! 55 - first sport you enjoyed: Basketball probs... 56 - first vacation: Gulf Shores, AL when I was a wee one 58 - first pair of trainers: I HAD TO GOOGLE THIS BECAUSE I’VE NEVER HEARD SOMEONE CALL SNEAKERS TRAINERS I don’t know

// right now

59 - eating: nothing 60 - drinking: nothing 61 - i’m about to: sit on my computer until my break is up and I have to work again 62 - listening to: My Address Is Hollywood - Adore Delano 63 - waiting for: the beach 64 - want kids: nah 65 - get married: I would like to but I’m probably not the marrying/dating/happiness type put 66 - career: wish I knew

// which is better

67 - lips or eyes: eyes 68 - hugs or kisses: hugs 69 - taller or shorter: taller 70 - older or younger: older 71 - spontaneous or romantic: ?!?????!??!?!?!?!?!??! 72 - nice stomach or nice arms: Nice hair 73 - sensitive or loud: ??????????? 74 - hook up or relationship: relationship 75 - trouble maker or hesitant: ???????????

// have you ever

76 - kissed a stranger: nah 77 - drank hard liquor: yah 78 - lost glasses/contacts: nah 79 - sex on the first date: nah 80 - broke someone’s heart: nah 81 - had your own heart broken: nah 83 - turned someone down: yah 84 - cried when someone died: yah 85 - fallen for a friend: nah

// do you believe in

86 - yourself: pfffft 87 - miracles: eh 88 - love at first sight: eh 89 - heaven: ehhhhh 90 - santa claus: hella 91 - kiss on first date: ehhhhhhh 92 - angels: ehhhhhhhhhh