#unluckybones

I need a girl that knows what she needs to know to get where she wants to go, and if she don't know that much at least be making the effort to gather the information. I need a girl with a mind that can keep up with mine since my thought process often defies time.

I don't just sit around and think about the same shit everyday of the week. I have an imagination like Indiana Jones. I like to explore my own temples, discovering things about me, putting my discoveries into action, always going to sleep more myself than I woke up that morning, so when I die I will have died I, and nobody would ever be able to say I was ever trying to be somebody else.

"Where am I going to find a girl like that?" is the wrong question. The right ones vary from , "Who is she?", "Are we already close?", "Will I be surprised?"

I will go out of my way to let you know I got your text by replying at least once. This lets you know that I saw your message. If I don't reply after that assume something serious came up. A delayed first reply can go up to a few hours depending on what I'm doing.

I try to hold a conversation, but it just doesn't seem to be working. This either means you're boring, or I'm not in the mood.

If I just don't reply, I probably don't even really like you.

If I'm not listening to music, I'm writing.

If I'm not writing, I'm studying.

If I'm not studying, I'm learning.

If I'm not learning something, I'm working.

If I'm not working, I'm relaxing while listening to music.

If I'm not doing any of the above, I'm dead.

If I'm not dead, I must be alive. 

If I'm alive I might be reading something.

If I'm not reading I'm listening to music...

Was listening to a little J. Cole & Drake, but mostly Kendrick Lamar. Dude is amazing (talking about Kendrick), you should listen to him if you already don't.

I'm taking notes.

Writing whatever comes to mind in this little notebook I got from the book store at school. Whether it be quotes from the lyrics I heard, or the things I come across on Tumblr.

I've thought about my mom a few times. I love her. She's changed herself for the better by bringing God into her life, but of course there's a problem. She's tried to force the word of God unto me & my siblings. What she should have done is let everybody come to him at their own pace. Offered to take us to church instead of just waking us up everyday telling us we had to go. Asking for us to read the Bible with her instead of just pulling us away from the things we as kids thought was fun (If you take a child away from fun they will begin to hate & neglect what pulled them away from it, forcing God upon your children is the ultimate recipe for the destruction of their faith, this is how it was for me anyways). Showing us that God is making her happier instead of trying to make us the ideal Christian family she probably always sees in church. 

I for one love God, and even through my whole "OFWGKTA" (Look it up & yes I still listen to them) phase I knew in the back of my mind that would not stop loving him. I'm actually really surprised I didn't die because I slandered & used his name in vein during that period, and I really hope he can forgive me for it. I can only hope. I have faith that his love will forever be with me though, so I'm not going to go through life just wondering if I'm going to wake up in the hottest part of hell because of the things I did. That's foolish. I'm going to live, and God will be apart of the gift he gave me.

Yes I'm still going to listen to the music I listen to. 

Yes I'm still going to sin. I am man. God expects this from me. He knows I mean well though, so when I ask him for forgiveness, and I am confident that I am always granted with it.

I'll read the Bible when I want to, and I'll focus on the sections that speak to me (Using Google to assist me in finding those sections so I won't have to worry about reading the entire thing just to get to certain parts).

This is how I am. This is probably how I'll always be. Can't really say. People change. Don't believe me? I was a different person when I woke up yesterday. I had an epiphany. All of a sudden all of the advice my parents tried to give me when I was growing up started to make sense, and I started planning my formula for becoming a better person. Not for society, because society is full of pricks (like the one I hope to no longer be.. I was an internet bully for the longest because of Twitter.. Yeah, I can blame Twitter. Fuck Twitter. Still not deleting my account though.) I'm doing it for myself, because I want to be happy for me, for God. So I can show everybody that his role in my life is the rock that keeps me rolling.

This makes you look pressed for followers on Twitter:

I wasn't ever like this. I'm glad I left before I got the chance to become.

I unfollowed him & 400 other people.

My "follow:follower" will probably be better than his for a while. This is funny because I won't be active, but he'll still be tweeting.

Just felt like posting this because I just recently quit Twitter, but I didn't delete my account. I'm never going to tweet again, but I might log on there every once in a blue moon to see if anybody is thinking of me. They won't, but it's nice to believe they would. Eventually my mind will get over it & I'll never log onto Twitter again. For me as a person I just couldn't balance being there & having life. Oh well.

The people I didn't unfollow I got a strong spiritual connection with them. We just click, and I'm going to miss them because I don't have half of their numbers since I deleted 200+ contacts from my phone today. I don't plan on ever logging on and ever asking them for their numbers either. If they text me they'll text me. If they find my new blog, they'll follow me (or not), and I may, or may not follow them back. That's life. You meet people, become friends, and then strangers.