#unknownvisualnovel

This is not a developer post though it touches on the topic. But I just… need to toss out a vent that has been building up for months now.

I am so… frustrated… more then I let on when it comes to the fact that Keep or Kill and Unknown were removed from itch.

It's completely demotivated me. I'm sitting here trying so hard to push forward with the next game but it feels pointless… It doesn't feel like it's going to have a place in the world, and combined with my own worries about disappointing you all it is crippling me. I don't get as much done as I would prefer for the day due to this. I can't bring myself to do anything productive, personal care included.

I keep asking myself, "do I want to spend the next 2-5 years developing a new game for it to have no platform to share it on?"

All that time and effort…

But at the same time I don't want to abandon Bondagebunny games due to what's taking place with censorship.

I thought about going on hiatus again and giving it sometime but I literally just came off hiatus, and was trying to push through to start the next game. It feels horrible to close the doors on Patreons who just stepped in the door to have a seat.

I keep looking at that stupid little star on my page wondering if anyone else's title was removed as well, or did I just create something truly horrible and obscene that it needed to be removed. Just so horrible and vile... and I don't mean that in a good way but a critical one.

It's disappointing. Just when you think you got the hang of something.

I remember reading their terms of service so carefully when I first decided to post on itch too…

I still haven't heard back from GOG either. The more time that goes by with my games being banned on itch the more I doubt things are ever going back to the way they were. It just feels like such a waste. Not just for me but for everyone affected. It makes me so angry that people who bought my games now no longer have access to them to. Just today someone bought the BBundle on itch with Keep or Kill and Unknown in it, and I feel so bad cause they can't access its download even after purchase. I didn't realize the bundle was still up so I removed it and emailed that person a few links to download Keep or Kill/Unknown outside of itch... Cause I don't want them to be (sorry I don't know the best word here... gipped? short handed?)

I mean... *slow clap* good job Mastercard. Visa... Paypal... Stripe... Creative shout.... you did it. You not only censored everyone you straight up likely made artists like myself want to give up all together. Cause that's really what the world needed. More depression.

I'm so sick of places like this pretending they care about anyone other then their own ideals. Effectively damaging anyone and everyone in their path. Ideals that don't breathe or feel but the people they hurt do. There's effectively no words I could use to convey how deeply enraged I am as a creator.

This isn't really about porn for me. It's about ripping art from an artist that was using it to cope with crippling depression and without it, it just shows how much I needed it as a person. and I'm just so angry... so fucking angry... I finally felt like I found a place for myself in this world and it was literally ripped out beneath my feet...

Every time I feel like I'm finally standing again...

I know I can make games as a hobby and make them free and that might be the only path forward I don't know... but when I was actually selling games, I didn't feel as pathetic about my life. I didn't view myself as horribly as I used to. I felt like I was being somewhat successful, cause in society success is all about $$$. Even just earning that first 7$ on Patreon from my first patreon, I remember feeling so validated. Like I'm not Good-for-nothing. Even if it was just a little. It meant I wasn't good for nothing anymore.

Cause as long as you earn ANY money then you're not... or well that's how the feelings and perception of the world dictated it.

His birthday is 30/03/???? 🙂 However the year varies. Whatever age you or your OC is, he is 8 years older. That way he grows with you.