#underself

New things come, and we give a great amount of attention to whatever is new. It’s a refresher to the eyes, the body, the mind, and the soul. Something that is new, that will eventually fade into the stream of time. 

To think about it, most people cling to something so transient. I believe this is in itself is the reason for why they cling, because somewhere along the lines, they may just lose it. Without a hint of goodbye and a reminder to return.

Is that why they are so excited, every time something new comes into their life? But what about the other things they take for granted? Just because what was new has now become old, will be boxed and compartmentalized; to remain as remnants of the past, never to be opened again, and so moving on. 

Forgive the ones who lied to you. Forgive the ones who betrayed you. Forgive the ones who abandoned you. Forgive the ones who cheated on you. Forgive the ones who fell out of love with you. Forgive the ones who left you. Forgive the ones who told empty promises and words. Forgive the ones who tainted your heart with memories and then ended up not finishing what was started. Forgive the ones who told you that they are sorry, but really aren’t. Forgive the ones who made you cry at night for countless days. Forgive the ones that made you feel empty. Forgive the ones that made you feel lonelier. Forgive the ones who kept you safe and secure to feeling insecure and having your walls up because of the fears that keep you from letting people in. Forgive them.

There are many things I would have gladly categorized as happy memories if the path did not diverge from the supposed destination. Hence I live with this sinking thought that it would be much better if I had not done it after all. 

I love bonding with old, current and new friends. I seem to get a feeling of who I really am and what the word “friends” really means. And when I mean bonding I mean just sitting around, talking, laughing, chillin’, food trippin; whatever that makes everyone focused on the same thing. Having everyone on the same topic and active makes me feel at ease. I feel all my stress and worries are temporarily put aside and I can finally just sit back and relax.