Always the "Fun" great uncle
Growing up as a kid my great uncle Howard has always been wild to say the least. He's funny, super smart, stubborn as heck, and just someone you think would love forever. After Cancer and hospice he started his forever peacefully in his sleep a little after midnight on the 26th of this month. I felt and knew before we got the call. I made one last wish at 12:12 that he would feel better and get better and instantly felt this "no! Not like that!!" Feeling. But it felt unstoppable and like always, I just knew. The phonecall later came.
I've not been okay this year. I've been trying really hard. I miss everyone and I do mean everyone. I love all of you even those that don't love me. I hope you're all doing well and that your families are okay. I just keep trying to autopilot and I'm not doing the best job. Anyways, I'll miss the F out of my "fun"ncle. I didn't get to see him again.. but I know he didn't want me to see him like that. Sorry I come off as rambling and if you're even still reading thank you.
To my uncle: I love you and I hope you feel better now π« I'll miss you and I hope heaven is real so I can see you again. If it is, say hi to everyone for me and try not to get too smashed π. I love you π«
I'll try not to be depressing now. I've been trying if you can't tell.
