#ughgghhhhh

what the fuck is trump doing to the national institute of health

im sorry to make another post about the weight jokes thing (i'll try not to make too many, it's just really on the mind right now) but i think another thing that specifically bothers me about it is like. despite the fact it's played for laughs/as a joke, mr. benedict like. every single time responds with visible discomfort???? like i think him always kinda being like in denial about it is supposed to be part of the joke maybe but it just makes it read as even more uncomfortable and gross.

the worst part about wanting to drive is that i don't want to fucking drive at all i really really deeply don't. and it's really very easy to think well i don't want to drive because it is horribly dangerous and then just. continue not driving. and of course continue suffering getting picked up late and having to involve every member of my family in every single aspect of my life.

i think i might be sick. again.

That guy i ghosted from english class luckily isnt in any of my classes. How good is that? Currently have been off my miracle juice and its looking like highschool again. Able to do some school work but it aint happening. . Need the stress of it being due to motivate me. . Japanese class is boring. . Learning more with Misa Sensei . . Everything is falling apart at the seams . .