27. If you could go back in time, what would you have done differently?
37. Who do you trust the most right now?
42. Do you think that you have a future?
70. Do you think that you deserve this?
27. If you could go back in time, what would you have done differently?
I don't think you quite understand. I haven't had a choice about anything that mattered. Yes, I might not have encountered the ringmaster if I had walked down a different street. I might have avoided punishment on this or that occasion.
But coming to this world? That simply happened to me. Things shift and unfold. And even after that, if I had walked down a different street, who knows what fate would have been waiting there? This is clearer in my realm. Industry, planning, the whole motion of time...these things are not as clear-cut, and not much stock is put into them. There is such a thing as giving an order or setting off a chain reaction or drawing a map. But it is known that the results will be unstable, and can decay. Consequences will not be what is predicted, but what is psychically connected.
If I could connect ideas and images to one another differently, that would do more. That is timeless. I wish that I were connected with some form of peace.
37. Who do you trust the most right now?
Are you asking if I trust you? *steps back slightly* I'm sorry to disappoint, but I don't trust anyone. I am not so foolish. There are some people I would prefer to be hurt by, above others. Some people interest me. Carmine interests me. That's all.
42. Do you think that you have a future?
I think that things will change again. Something is coming, something is not yet clarified and played out. There will be some completion for me. Maybe that's a fuller life, a stabilization? But maybe that's just death. I don't know. *winces* Fffff...I shouldn't have thought about that.