Girls I cannot pursue or have no chance with say they love me more times than I can count. And if they said it to my face I wouldn’t believe them but they’re saying it to mutual friends. And it’s like why? Like it makes me feel good; to be liked by people I’m meeting for the first time and stuff. But why can’t stuff like this happen with a girl I can pursue or one I may have a chance with. Maybe this is like a fucked up way of thinking. Like maybe I should be more thankful that some people even like me in the first place. But it keeps happening with girls that I would lock up for life in a heartbeat but have no chance with for one reason or another. And the girls I actually try to pursue ghost me or leave me on read eventually. Life sucks sometimes in so many ways. Funny how when my friend told me this girl said this it made me feel so good inside. First thing I thought was, well maybe if I’m bringing joy to someone and people like me, maybe life is worth living. Even though I’ve done nothing with my life. And I also somehow turned it into a negative tumblr post.