#ty2014

It's kind of funny how I try so hard to please you. Why should I? I just act stupid and unintelligent. Why do I need to downgrade myself? If I'm not in the mood to talk, I should just not talk. I shouldn't have to put on a smile and laugh because I need to please you.

I thought she liked you. Ha. That bitch. She doesn't even care.

But I'm still lonely. I realize that I am an actual high schooler And that I'm practically almost done with it. Who do I have? You are gone. Where do I look? Everyone has found someone. Except me. Of course.

I'm happy for you. You found a new group of friends. I'm genuinely happy.

I didn't realize how much I miss you. 

I don't know what I felt when she told me. I was surprised, astonished, in awe. But it didn't hit me until after. Was she testing me? I'm sure she knows. She always finds a way to know.